Dear Future Husband

March 6, 2019

Dear Future Husband,

Grant is avoiding me.

And I think I know why.

I scared him.

I freaked him out.

I pressured him into something he didn't want to do.

He never liked me.

I should've known.

I'm such an idiot.

I'm so embarrassed.

And I'm sad.

Because I thought he liked me.

And I really wanted him to like me.

I'm honestly just so heartbroken because not only does he not like me, he won't even talk to me. I can't even be friends with him, that's just how awful I am in his eyes, I guess. He made my days so much more exciting, now everything is grey. I know I'll get over it eventually, it's not like I didn't expect it, it just sucks coming down from such a high to this.

I just need an explanation. Was I ugly? Annoying? Too young? Too needy? Too stubborn? Are my hands sweaty?

I didn't pressure him that much into holding my hand, I mean, he was the one who did it.

I deserved an explanation.

Xoxo, Alina