If You're Not Busy

Chapter 27 Understanding!

"Tessa" I will never stop you from doing what you want to do in life, in fact, I will be your number one fan I hope you realize that? You are the most important person to me and I want you to understand that one day. I do want us to move in together and to make love to you one day. Tessa blushed at the thought. But I also realize you need to take some time to take things slower. I do said Tessa but it's not because I don't want all the things you want. it's just you are the first! First? said, Mariah. Yes said Tessa You'll be my first love and also the first person I will be having sex with. It's all just a bit daunting for me and I don't want to rush anything, I want to enjoy it all. I love you Mariah Copeland I have no doubt about that. She pulled Mariah in for an intense kiss. Wow ! said Mariah as she pulled away. What's the matter ? said Tessa concerned. Well if you keep kissing me like that said Mariah It does things to me and makes me feel things in certain places! Tessa blushed again. Ooh ! I'm sorry. Don't be sorry said Mariah It's a wonderful feeling it's just that I don't want to overstep the mark and make you feel uncomfortable again. 

You didn't make me feel uncomfortable said Tessa it's just me, feeling like this is going a hundred miles an hour and I can't take it all in! Like how I'm feeling us literally just meeting falling in love and then you said about a place together! And I guess that just threw me because I had a dream growing up of me singing as I told you, and then in my mind, I'm saying to myself that if things get serious between us then does that mean my lifelong dream has to change? No! No! shouted Mariah I have dreams too Tessa. You do? Yes of cause I do. What are they? Well, I've always wanted to be the boss of something, I've always loved TV I know Dena probably thinks I want to take over from her at the café. That's the reason I've come to business school I guess? But I might need to talk to Dena when we have summer break about adding media studies to my course. Can you do that? asked Tessa. I have no idea until I look into it properly said, Mariah.

Tessa looked at the time it's getting really late I should be heading back said Tessa, I can't persuade you to stay? asked Mariah cheekily. Tessa grabbed her and kissed her. I would love to! But I'm not going to take you up on the offer this time said Tessa disappointing Mariah. OK! I guessed that's what your answer would be your answer, you can't blame a girl for trying though. Mariah smiled at Tessa. And anyway I have all the time in the world to get you to stay at some point. What're our plans for tomorrow ? asked Tessa. I have no idea at the moment, but let's meet at eleven at our usual place and we'll go and grab a coffee and see where the day takes us said, Mariah. Sounds wonderful to me said Tessa as she kissed Mariah before exiting and walking back to her room in her accommodation. She had refused a cab that Mariah offered to get her because she needed the fresh air to think about stuff. Mariah lay in bed after Tessa had left and hugged her pillow. Oh, how I wish this was Tessa right now she thought. I'd love to show how much I've fallen in love with her. 

But at the same time, she was apprehensive about making love for the first time. I need to talk to Shelby about some tips, she picked up her phone without realizing what the time was. Err Mariah are you ok ? said a very sleepy Shelby. Oh my god! I'm so so sorry I didn't even look at the time. I'll let you sleep said Mariah about to put the phone down. "Mariah" stop shouted Shelby you've woken me up now, start talking. Mariah cleared her throat and blurted out! How do I have sex? Shelby was a bit taken aback at first. You've never made love before? Really? Shelby was so surprised. Why are you being like this? asked Mariah. I'm so sorry said Shelby I was just amazed that you've never been with anyone, and you had your twenty-first birthday in January! When did you first have sex then? asked Mariah. Ooh, let me see! Well, the first time I had oral I think I was about sixteen. "Oral" ? said Mariah. Yeah! Well, we'll get to that said Shelby. The first full lovemaking session I did was when I was about eighteen? Maybe before? You don't remember? said Mariah a little taken aback. I was very active at a very early age said Shelby, so I can't remember that well because there was no specific person back then.