If You're Not Busy

Chapter 59 Grieving

Six months have gone by since Cassie died. Mariah and Tessa have both been to counselling since then. Both of them were grieving in different ways. Dena and Cindy were so glad that they were doing the therapy, it had been such a traumatic thing for them both to have to go through. But at the same time, they were really worried about the girl's relationship and the pressure it was under since losing Cassie. When the families had been to visit, they noticed that Mariah and Tessa were hardly communicating with one another and things had changed between them. Cindy and Dena usually talked at least once a week over Facetime, they got on so well and had really become the closest of friends. What are we going to do? asked Cindy one day. They are just both burying themselves in work, and they only see the councillors once a month now I think? 

Yeah! your right said Dena Mariah has been on a new project and had to go to New York a few times and Tessa has been to Los Angeles, but neither of them has been included in the other's trips I noticed. I noticed that too said, Cindy. Before all this happened they hated being apart from one another! Have you been able to talk to Mariah? I have tried to said Dena but as soon as I mention Cassie she avoids the subject. Same here said Cindy Tessa just ignores me if I bring the subject of Cassie up. I really don't know what we are going to do? Because we have both tried to get them to talk about it and we've had the door slammed into our faces so to speak. I think we're just going to have to be a bit more forceful said Dena because of the way things are going I can see them going their separate ways, and if that happens they are going to be even more miserable than they are now. 

What do you suggest we do? asked Cindy. Do you have a plan? Not yet said Dena I don't know what we're going to do, but I will work something out. Our daughters were meant for each other, they just both need to see that again. Oh, you are so right said, Cindy. Like the girls always say they have one heart. It may be shattered right now, but their moms are still fighting for them and we will stick that broken heart back together again piece by piece. We will said Dena as she signed off. What are you and Cindy planning now? asked Frank as Dena turned her mobile phone off. Oh you know, just trying to get our daughters to see they could be losing the love of their lives! I know what you mean said, Frank. they were very different the last time we saw them. It was as if they couldn't bear to be in the same room. You can count me and Carl in on anything you ladies have planned. That's great love thank you. 

But at this moment in time, I have no idea how we're going to get them to be with one another again like they were before Cassie died. I mean they were both so looking forward to being parents. This is just a blip for them, I know their hearts are shattered right now but they can have another baby in the future if that's what they want? At the moment though they are still going through the grieving process, instead of them doing it together they are actually pushing one another away. And I don't know why that is? Do you think Mariah's thinking along the lines of I carried her and I gave birth to her so how can Tessa be feeling like I am? It could be something like that said Dena. What about Tessa's view though? said, Frank. I think she's feeling guilty maybe? Because she had to watch while her wife went through all the pain and suffering, and there was nothing she could do to stop it! Well, I hope you and Cindy can figure a way of trying to help them said Frank because if it doesn't get resolved soon, it may be too late! 

Tessa was getting ready to go down to her studio for the day. She had no idea what Mariah was doing? Because when their parents went home after their last visit, Tessa had decided to move into the spare room. All she really wanted to do was cuddle Mariah and make things better for her. But she just got the cold shoulder every time she tried, so in the end, she just decided to stop trying! Mariah didn't seem to be bothered that she had moved into the spare room either. I know she's hurting thought Tessa but so am I, it was my egg it came from inside me! Going to the counselling had helped, but she felt she wasn't only grieving the loss of Cassie but Mariah too. I really don't know how we are going to come back from this? Mariah and I have buried ourselves in work, we've done trips without one another, I want to talk to her so badly. But how do I approach things? I'm frightened if I say anything she will just run away. Tessa was lonely, she missed her wife and the fun they used to have together before Cassie entered their lives.