My Hero Academia: When All Hell Breaks Loose

Chapter 106 - What's Going On?

Warning: Possible Major Manga Spoiler

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I am okay.

If we ignore my practical death sentence, I am doing pretty well. I'm not crying all the time. I'm simply existing, and I consider that an achievement. In other people's terms, it means that I am suppressing my true emotions.

To those who believe that, you're probably right, but I am choosing to ignore it.

I am okay.

Ever since opening up to Hizashi, I haven't been allowed in my room. Hizashi explained that it wasn't helping me by hiding in there, so I was forced to stay in Hizashi's dorm. In addition, I can't stay laying there. I have to move. You would think that would be easy for someone like me, but it isn't now. It feels like something is constantly holding me down. The best comparison is it's like wearing heavy clothing. Uncomfortably heavy clothing.

I hate it, but I am okay.

Back to the moving thing, I have to move. Otherwise, Hizashi pulls my ass off the couch and drags me around. I honestly really don't give a damn about that. However, I know that Hizashi is trying, and I don't want to make his efforts worthless. I only try for him. He has helped me so much in the past, probably way more than he realizes. The least I can do is not be an ass to him.

It's genuinely hard. I can only take a few steps before I become exhausted. The moment I sit down, I fall asleep again. Sure, it's been getting better, but it's slow progress. Imagine being able to run for hours on end without needing a break only to be forced to take a break after only a few steps.

Don't even get me started on eating. All I can say is that I am eating.

It's unfair, but when has my life ever been fair?

The first couple of days after my removal from my room, I just stayed in Hizashi's room. I didn't see much of a reason to go outside. Why would I if I'm just going to pass out on the couch in the teacher's dorm living room?

However, eventually, I did go out there. I went out there, passed out on the couch, woke up an hour or two later, and started annoying the teachers more and more overtime.

After doing that for a few days, I am now at a point where I don't immediately pass out when I go out there. I can say up for a bit. I still need to sleep quite a bit, but it's not as much as before. For a comparison, before, I was sleeping more than Shouta. Now, I sleep just as much as him.

Oh, Shouta...his ass still hasn't woken up yet. For fuck sakes, the one time I am taking naps like he wants, he decides to get his dumbass into a coma. Like, if I was in a coma, I would have already woken up by now. Actually, I would have woken up a week ago. Shouta has the fucking nerve to stay in a coma for a week.

I am going through this. The least the universe could do is give me Shouta so he can beat the shit out of me. I love Hizashi and Nemuri, but I want everyone here. I know his ass will wake up, though. He's just taking his sweetass time as always.

I guess I am stuck with the cards I have for now.

At the moment, I am on the teacher's dorm living room couch with Snipe. Usually, if he's in the same room as me, I would just leave. However, I like to believe that I have become a better person. I can have a casual conversation with the teachers I usually hold a vendetta over now. It's probably because it's a bitch to move, but, at the same time, I'm willing to take any company at this point. They're not absolute assholes to me all the time, so it works out.

I may or may not have become clingy, but that's a future me problem. Right now, I'm traumatized, so it's perfectly for me to be clingy. If I get better, we'll forget this all happened.