Kabhi Toh Nazar Milao Part 3

Aansu

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It is titled 'Matters of heart'.

Sameer looked at the blushing face of his wife... adoring the shy yet proud smile. He was relieved to see the inhibitions that troubled her in the morning not visible anymore.

"Naina, tum subah itni pareshan kyon thi?" He held her hand while another one was around her shoulder as she leaned against him.

She chewed her inner cheek, aware of his answer if she told him the real reason. Her appearance would always be perfect for him... so would be his love for her... there was no place for any insecurities in their relationship. But the sadness that had descended on her in the morning seemed to be enormous at that time. Later, however, it just melted away on its own.

"Agar tum bataogi nahi toh main kaise janunga ki tumhe kis baat ki takleef thi. Mujhe bilkul achha nahi laga tumhe aise akele chod ke jaana. Hum dono toh sab kuch bant te hain na... toh fir tumne mujhe bhej kyon diya? Tumhari aankhon ne jo kaha woh kuch aur tha aur tumne kuch aur hi keh diya... aur fir aankhen khol ke dekha tak nahi meri taraf. Aisa kya hua tha Naina jo tum khud ko rok rahi thi?" He wanted to know the reason why she fought hard with herself in the morning.

She decided to tell him the complete truth, "Kal raat theek se so nahi paayi thi isliye subah kuch ajeeb sa lag raha tha. Aur kuch nahi, bas dil thoda bechain ho raha tha."

"Toh tum mujhe bata deti na... main tumhe bechain nahi rehne deta." He kissed her temple.

She looked down at their hands, "Mere haath dekho, Sameer. Abhi bilkul theek hain, lekin subah inmein soojan thi.... pairon mein bhi. Kaafi alag lagte hain jab aisa hota hai. Main toh sirf haath aur pair hi dekh paati hun lekin tum toh mujhe dekhte ho na... main bhi alag dikhne lagi hun. Chehra tak bhaari mehsoos hota hai. Yehi sab soch rahi thi ki tum aa gaye bathroom se... aur tumhe dekhke..."

He could understand that she was making a comparison. But he didn't want her to get any complex.

"Mere aise bathroom se bahar aane pe tum hamesha mujh mein kho jaati thi, lekin aaj tumne aankhen band kar li. Jab main kareeb aaya tab bhi tumne na kuch kaha, na theek se dekha. Main bohot darr gaya." His voice was sad.

"Tum darr gaye the? Kyon?" She looked up in surprise.

He gave her a sullen look, "Mujhe laga ab tumhe koi farq nahi padta... pehle ki tarah tumhara dil nahi dhadakta kyonki aadat ho gayi hai. Kahan pehle tumhari saansen ruk jaati thi aur ab dekhna tak nahi chahti. Maine socha 'Sameer beta, saari exercise bekaar hai agar biwi ne muh pher liya... kuch toh karna padega'. Office jaake bhi yehi sochta raaha ki aisa kya kar sakta hun jisse tum fir se mujhe pyar se dekho."

She stared at him... amazed at the direction of his thoughts.

"Tum bilkul buddhu ho. Aaj subah tum pehle se bhi zyada achhe lag rahe the... meri saansen hi nahi, meri dhadkan tak ruk gayi thi. Kaise khud ko tumse door rakha main hi jaanti hun." She snuggled into him, cupping his chin.

"Kyon rakha, Naina?" His voice was deep.

She was quiet for a moment, lowering her eyes, then spoke in a low voice, "Aisa nahi hai Sameer ki mujhe tumhare pyar ka ahsaas nahi hai. Iss haalat mein kabhi kabhi rone ko dil kar aata hai... aur uss waqt jo aankhon ke saamne hota hai ussi mein kaaran dhoond lete hain. Mujhe tumse ya apne aap se koi shikayat nahi hai... par subah achanak se ek udaasi si chaa gayi. Tumhe isliye jaane ko kaha kyonki main nahi chahti thi tum mere aansu dekho aur tumhe dukh ho. Mujhe pata tha thodi der mein main khud hi inn sabse bahar aa jaungi."