One Rule! • JK x Reader•

57. Sweating

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You watch on from a short distance backstage as BTS do their usual group hug, readying themselves for their performance; this performance is a little different as it's at home and it's on an awards show, so this time they really do feel the need to blow everyone away with it. They've practiced enough; rigorously going through the dance routine over and over again. You'd seen them sweat to death in the dance studio at work, you've watched as they collapse to the ground from doing run through after run through!

They're going to be amazing!

They all look amazing! Beautiful in fact!

You can't deny that they are all very handsome; dressed in suits for the awards show makes them even more so! But now in their stage outfits they look just as good only more edgy, more showy but yet they are as humble as ever.

They all throw you a small smile before they turn and go on stage; you and Beom stood in an awkward silence as the guys' performance begins.

You try not to watch Jungkook too much, try not to notice the way his body moves so elegantly but powerfully. How his clothes that fit just right, cling onto every part of his body; you can't help when a pang of jealously surges through you as you imagine how all the fan girls are watching him right now and admiring him the way you are silently trying not to!

The way they imagine how it must be to know him and yet you have the pleasure, have the fortune of knowing him and yet you still keep pushing him away.

You have to!

For the sake of your job obviously; however, the more you think about the way you want him, you feel like maybe the job isn't worth it so much and he is but then it's just ridiculously stupid because, Jungkook, he doesn't even feel that way about you!

He can't!

You can't!

Hell! This has to stop.

"Y/N?"

You turn to Beom quickly dragging your gaze away from Jungkook on stage.

"Yes?" You try so hard to pretend like nothing is wrong and all the things you've been thinking you haven't been thinking!

"Is everything okay? I mean... sorry I don't mean to pry but, since earlier I just, I don't know, is something distracting you?"

As Beom finishes talking your stupid brain mentally answers 'yes! Yes something is distracting me, Jungkook! He's awfully distracting!'

"No, no Beom why? I'm sorry, I've had a bit of a rough week last week, not... not because I was looking after the guys just, life..." you give a giggle but his face remains unchanged, "... sorry, I wasn't sleeping properly I was a bit under the weather, I'm bouncing back though now" you give him a smile.

Beom smiles back and looks a little awkwardly at you; "you and Jungkook... he..."

Your heart is hammering in your chest you hate this!

"... he seems like he's really taking note of you, it's a good achievement Y/N, myself and Sung Jin, we used to worry so much about him, saying he'll push it too far one day, could potentially ruin his career if he carried on over working like he was, it's no good to keep seeing your idols drop after every single performance, lately, well, he's being doing much better, you are a positive impact, you should be proud of the way you take care of the guys, they tell me you're very good, they talk about you as if you're friends, that's what we've needed" his voice and his smile are sincere and you can't help the smile that grows on the corner of your mouth, it still it feels wrong when you know so much more; the way you've shared a bed with Jungkook, more than once now, the way he's been at your apartment, hung out with you, the lingering gazes you've seen between you both.