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70. Fine

Everything's wrong!

Life tipped upside down because of one stupid mistake you promised yourself you'd never do!

How did it get to this?

You're sat back at your desk with the coffee in your hand and a million and one things running through your mind, and as much as you want to go and find Jungkook and talk to him, at the same time you understand why you can't. How could you when you betrayed his trust as their assistant and kissed him? God you're so stupid sometimes! Actually this is worse than stupidity! However, no one from the company had been to talk to you, not even Beom and none of the guys have spoken to you about it either, so had Jungkook not told anyone?

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The week only gets harder for you because it's nearing Beom's get together at the guys' dorm for his little surprise birthday thing and Jungkook still isn't talking to you; plus every day that passes without him talking to you, you miss him even more and regret even more what you've done! To be honest, you've come to the conclusion on three nights now that maybe by the end of the month you should hand in your notice with the company and leave, because you can't carry on like this and you did break trust and Jungkook isn't going to forgive you, neither would the others if they found out.

And to make matters worse, today you have to go to the dance studio to watch a practice of an upcoming performance in Japan because now most of the focus for the band is on that. You shove the door open to the studio and immediately want to die when your eyes fall on Jungkook covered in sweat, so much so that his tshirt is stuck to his chest and you can more or less see everything under it.

He catches you staring too which is a thousand times worse and you wish you could just run away but of course, you can't! So instead he tears his eyes away and you do the same, now there's a different sort of tension between you and now even you don't know what it is but you don't think it's very nice, worse bit about it all is that you're sure the others will sense it too.

"Hey Y/N, thanks for coming can you help us get some of the water bottles ready for when they've finished practicing and oh, of course you're staying for the run through aren't you?" The choreographer asks as he sees you turn towards him.

"Yes, yes of course to both questions, I'll just, I'll do the water" you smile awkwardly and head to the water bottles stacked up because the ones they'd already had were empty, you stack them onto the table, at least two or three bottles each.

The practice run through is like agony, the fact that you have to watch them but your try so hard to not let your gaze fall on Jungkook, obviously he doesn't like you after everything so, only once or twice do your eyes flit onto him and they move off too soon in case he catches you, you see Jimin glance over at you a few times and one of the times is just after you'd dragged your eyes away from Jungkook and were nervously scraping a hand through your hair; Jimin gives you a questionable look but you ignore it and throw him a small smile.

You're grateful when the practice is over because as soon as the guys have cooled down you can run away to your office and hide hoping not to have many more encounters with Jungkook for the rest of the day, because as much as you miss him, you hate the tension now.

You stand up and go over to the water knowing immediately that they'll need it, the guys get up off the floor where they'd collapsed covered in sweat and exhaustion and you hand them water bottles making sure they were all okay.

Jimin didn't get up as quickly and unfortunately for you, neither did Jungkook; Jimin gets up and stands next you waiting as you grab him a bottle, "you okay?" You ask as he takes the bottle from you, opening it and taking a gulp quickly before answering you, "yeah just, wow it was so hard, thanks Y/N" he smile tiredly and slumps back down on the floor with his water. Jungkook wanders slowly over to you and hovers at the table in silence but as you go to grab a bottle of water for him, he grabs too and your hands touch, without thinking you drag your hand away so quickly it shocks Jungkook into looking at you; "sorry" he mumbles and let's go of the water just standing there. You grab him a bottle of water and shyly look up at him, "it's... sorry, there you go" he takes the bottle from you and just stands there, "I didn't..." just as you were going to say something while he stares on at you, you're interrupted when Jimin is back the table.

"Can I... oh sorry, I just wanted another bottle" Jimin looks between the two of you and you know for fact he's picked up on the awkward tension.

"Of course you can" you say tearing your eyes away from Jungkook and grabbing another water bottle for Jimin, as you pass it him Jungkook just walks away silently slumping down into the corner of the studio furthest away from you and your heart hurts all over again.

"Thanks" Jimin gives you a tiny smile and then goes to sit near Jungkook.

After another five minutes or so you tidy a few things  up and leave the room heading back to your office, things are just awful!

You've not been sat at your desk for very long when the door creeps open without a knock and just for a tiny heartbeat you think it might be Jungkook just when you see the black shoe but looking up you see Jimin and can't help the quiet sigh of disappointment that leaves your mouth.

"Hey" he smiles and then stalls in the door way.

"Hey come in" you smile and he finally moves again and shuts the door, going over and grabbing the chair at the window and sits down in it in front of your desk. You lean your chin on your hand and just sit waiting for Jimin to start his questioning.

"Y/N? What's wrong?"

You sigh and he hears it this time; "Y/N don't lie to me, I know you're lying if you say nothing's wrong so don't say it!" Jimin stares intently at you but it's softer and you feel sorry for him, you don't mean to keep lying.

"Jimin, I don't want you to think I don't trust you but..."

"But what?"

"Jimin, don't... I'm fine" you look away from him momentarily and take a deep breath, this time you're not going to get away with it the way you thought you could before.

"Okay then, you're fine whatever, how's Jungkook?" He glares at you.

"How? How am I supposed to know, you're with him all the time"

"Exactly, you haven't seen him since last Friday night, well, not properly, I know for a fact he hasn't been in here like he normally does" Jimin's eyes are piercing into you.

"You're busy aren't you? I'm busy it's just the way it is, anyway, does it make a difference, the rest of you aren't in here all the time either, I don't get to speak to all of you like that" your voice is tinted with anger but you don't actually know why.

"Okay but even when we were busy he always came to see you, look, I don't want to pry I want to help, I can't help but notice all the tension between the two of you..." Jimin trails his voice off as if he's ready to just give up.

"We just... is he okay?" You give in, your heart needs to know if Jungkook is doing alright especially after this latest incident.

Jimin smiles shyly, "I think he's okay, he's sort of just been his normal self, he only... Jungkook only seems to alter when, when you're around... sorry Y/N"

You give a sad smile, you heart hurting, Jungkook really hates you doesn't he? "It's fine" is all you can say without your voice choking up, you just want to be alone now, or with Jungkook to say sorry, but that'll never happen.

Jimin stands up ready to leave but you stop him, "Jimin, will you ask Jungkook if, if he can pop in and see me, just, for a second"

"Yeah sure" he nods his head respectfully and leaves your office.

But, it's only another five minutes and Jimin sticks his head around the corner of your office door; "Y/N, Jungkook says sorry he's busy, he can't come just now..."

You nod your head, "it's okay Jimin thanks"

"Sorry Y/N" Jimin smiles sympathetically and shuffles out of your office.