Mark
Okay I'm actually starting to freak the
fuck out
Favorite Person☺️
What's going on?
Mark
The date
The first time was just awkward and I
didn't even have to do much except
have Jeno not get in a fight with
Haechan but this time the date seems
more real
And I don't know what to do about that
I'm fine with it, I want to go on the date
but I'm so fucking scared of the
possibilities and I can feel myself
starting to shut down and now I think
I'm gonna do something stupid
Favorite Person☺️
If you need space and time to think,
that's not stupid
What are you scared of? Is it just being
hurt again?
Mark
There's that which I'm always scared of
but I'm also scared that they're gonna
decide we don't work before we can
even start
I'm so fucking terrified of them breaking
my heart but I don't wanna never have
a chance either
What if I like them and they don't like
me?
I want to protect myself and just pull
away from them but I don't wanna do
that. I just want good things go
happen and that not being a
guarantee freaks me out
Favorite Person☺️
Can I ask you some questions?
Mark
Sure
Favorite Person☺️
Think about the relationships you have with them right now. Have any of them done or said anything to make you think they don't wanna give you a chance or
try dating at all?
You said you want a chance. Does you wanting a chance with them outweigh
your fear of getting hurt?
How worried are you that they
don't/won't like you?
And if it's not too much, how much of
this has to do with...your ex?
Mark
Is it bad that I'm relieved you didn't say
her name?
Favorite Person☺️
Idk, I'm petty and call my ex anything
but his name
Mark
I remember being worried about Jeno
but we're actually friends now. But
friends doesn't equal romance
I mean, on my end, it kinda does but
they could all only want to be friends
and that's fine in the long run but it
would hurt like hell right now
That solely depends on the day. Some
days I just decide I wanna keep myself
in this shell where no one can hurt me
but I know what I'm like and if I like
them enough, what I want will
outweigh fear
It also depends. Most of the time I don't
worry but then I just start thinking
and then I spiral
I've always been terrified of getting hurt.
When I dated...when we broke up, it was
basically all my fears coming true
And I hate myself for ignoring my
warning signs not to date cause I
wanted her too much
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Love Me | MarkNoHyuckMin
FanfictionJaemin, Mark, Jeno, and Haechan end up going on a blind date due to their friends hoping something will happen. Things will happen. But there's no guarantee it's going to be romantic and there's no guarantee it's going to end well for any of them. �...
