Love Me | MarkNoHyuckMin

chapter seventy one

Taeyong blinks back his tears, feeling so fucking tired of dealing with this. Tired of holding onto the guilt, the words, the hatred.

THAT'S NOT ME ANYMORE!, he wants to scream.

But he still doesn't feel like anyone would hear him.

Sure, he has his boyfriends who love him and he hasn't actually lost any of his current friends. Except maybe Mark.

He misses him. He misses their random conversations, especially when they'd video call while he was tipsy because it was just nonstop laughter. He misses being able to just spend time with the male and not feel forced to say anything or act a certain way. Not that he feels this way with anyone else, but he's just always been the most comfortable with Mark.

He's not sure if Mark even remembers the affection he used to give him, having seemed to reserve that for Chenle, Johnny, Jaehyun, and his boyfriends, but he misses that too.

"Does he even want to talk to me?" The male mumbles, picking up his phone and scrolling through his contacts for the boy.

Yong

Yong
Hey Mark?

Mark
Wassup
Everything okay with you?

Yong
I don't know
Do I still have you as my friend?

Mark
Dude, of course
What's going on?

Yong
You don't talk to me anymore

Mark
I'm sorry

Yong
Just a question, are you still mad
at me for what I did to Haechan?

Mark
What? No
Haechan's not mad at you either

Yong
It feels like everybody else is
No one's been normal with me since
that party as much they try to
pretend
Even Doyoung and Yuta are extra
careful making sure I'm not gonna
turn back into the old Taeyong

Mark
But Jaehyun said you were acting
weird...

Yong
Why do you think that is?
I fucking scared you all and I'm just
waiting for someone besides Jisung
to show how much they hate me

Mark
I don't think Jisung hates you

Yong
If I asked him, he'd say yes
I would test it out but I didn't plan on
giving myself that many reasons to
cry today

Mark
Yong, I'm seriously worried about you
I promise that I'm not even thinking
about that. I've honestly been a shit
friend to some people lately. I can't
even remember the last time I talked
to anyone besides Johnny and Jaehyun
and I could've been a better friend to
Jaehyun too
I'm really sorry and I'll work on it but
just know that I'm not mad at you or
anything and I really didn't mean to
not talk to you for this long

Yong
It's okay

Mark
No it's not
Cause it hurt you
But I'm not letting this happen again

Yong
Okay

Mark
Get ready

Yong
Why?