i might not be updating in the near future.
today, i went to the park in my trailer court. i just wanted to simply swing for a few moment and be all happy then go home and eat.
well, what happened, was the opposite.
i had been swinging - fairly high too. when i was swinging foward, in a matter of seconds the swing broke and i fell.
i landed on my tailbone on hard, sandy ground. for maybe a solid minute, i couldn't breathe, i could only speak few words, and i was scared. i know i always talk about wanting to die, but in that moment, i had never been more scared.
i just sat there, struggling to breath and struggling to talk. my thoughts were, "shit! shit! fuck! oh my god! i dont wanna die! not now! fuck! talk, you dumb bitch. come on."
it was scary. then i sat there for another few minutes after i had caught my breath and i could speak.
then the pain spread like a wildfire in California.
pain all up my spine and shoulder blades. i had slowly got to my feet and walked for a moment, thanking god i could still feel my legs after that. so, after that, i went home limping and ate and now i'm sitting in the recliner chair with a pain in my ass/lower back and i want to die, but not literally considering i just freaked out.
this is why i might not be updati ng because my entire back is in pain and i cant take in a breath without pain.
deeply sorry to everyone, but i'm glad that this happened to me and not some seven year old kid. i can probably take this pain better than they would.
sorry, again, but i hope you all feel better than i fucking do.
i love you all and hope you stay safe :)
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ONE SHOTS!Jorbyn
FanfictionTitle^^^ Also, my first book, One Shots〰️Jorbyn is not up anymore :( but this is the sequel! Warnings: Swearing Gore Self harm/depression Floof S-04/29/19 E-04/24/20 ( nearly a year later and the book is ending, aH ) #2 in cmb
