𝕋𝕣𝕒𝕚𝕟 𝕞𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕃𝕠𝕧𝕖 (Discontinued)

Chapter 11- Hyung

Y/n got off the Uber he called and carried the eco bag full of groceries and other necessities. Y/n thanked the driver before they sped off. Y/n greeted the receptionist and the guards in front of the building before he went into the elevator. He shuffled a bit and turned his phone on. He saw the 5 unread messages, 2 from Lia, another 2 from Ryujin, and 1 from his older brother. Suddenly, someone's hand appeared in-between the elevator doors stopping them from closing. It was Bang Chan. Y/n's older brother. Y/n never really got close to anyone in their family, at all, but that didn't mean he hates all of them. He just never felt like he belonged in the family, ever.

Y/n rolled his eyes as Chan walked in and stood beside him with a smile plastered across his face, "Are you not going to say hi to your Hyung?" Chan said nudging Y/n with his shoulder. Y/n even respond, he just opened a game and started playing on his phone, not even giving Chan a glance. 

"Yah Y/n Bang. I'm talking to you." Chan said slightly irritated.

"And I wished you weren't. Take a hike Chan" Y/n said as he kept playing on his phone.

"Yah, I haven't seen you for years and this is how you greet me?" Chan said raising an eyebrow.

 "I'm not even going to waste any effort in greeting you." Y/n deadpanned as he switched to another game on his phone.

"Tsk, why are you always so pissed at the world Y/n?" Chan said shaking his head.

"I'm not mad, you're just a person I don't want to talk to." Y/n said finally looking Chan in his eyes. Y/n was taller, but Chan had a little more muscles than him. 

"Y/n we love you, we all do. You just can't see that, you refuse to." Chan said putting his hand on Y/n's shoulder which Y/n shrugged off.

"All of you made me feel like I was a disgrace. The only person I could talk to was You, but you made me feel like I had no worth." Y/n said with his tone laced with irritation.

"Look, I didn't know how you felt. Why didn't you say anything?" Chan said grabbing Y/n's shoulder.

"I did, every day. Every day, I'd say Hyung am I a mistake? And you would always ignore me. Sometimes I would even ask you if you were better than me and you would laugh it off." Y/n said removing both Chan's hand off of his shoulders with a glare.

"Look, Hyung is so sorry. Can I make it up to you? Anything please, I miss you." Chan said looking up at Y/n.

"Okay, here's something. First, you can keep your hands to yourself because you lost the title 'Big Brother' in my head a long time ago." Y/n said backing away a bit.

"Second, you teach me how to produce music, then maybe I can finally call you a brother again." Y/n said fixing the eco bag in his hand.

"Third, you pay for whatever I want. Simple as that, is it a deal?" Y/n said with his hand extended. 

"Sure, no buying of dirty things okay?" Chan said in which made Y/n chuckle.

"You would most likely be the one doing that." Y/n said as he pulled Chan's hand in for a hug. 

"Missed you Hyung." Y/n said walking out of the elevator smiling widely.

Y/n's POV

They all loved me, huh? Some bullshit. Maybe Chan Hyung loved me but the others? Fuck them, I don't care. They can burn in the pits of hell for all I care. My fucks to give have run dry. That's why I told auntie if I could study at the Faroe Islands, I wanted to get away from all of them. When Hyung left I basically crumbled. I always went home to nothing, the house was deserted. Mom and dad were at work, my little siblings hated me. I never felt the warmth of being loved by a mother, everything I did feel like I was a mistake to her. 

It hurt me so much I wrote a suicide letter, but then I thought about it for a long time. Sure they were better off without me, for fuck sakes I felt like a nuisance to their lives. But I deserved much more than that, my life shouldn't end with them. So my Aunt booked a flight for me and I ran away the day before the plane took off, I bet they didn't even notice. I left Australia to go across the world. And I studied in Faroe Islands while I worked for my Aunt's restaurant as an apprentice cook and a waiter. It was a somewhat famous restaurant, we served Korean and Japanese food there. I remember laughing with my aunt there and the days when I actually felt like I was worth something.

I love my aunt. I have to admit she had her similarities with my mom since they are sisters, but she was different from my mom. She actually cared for my well-being and constantly checked up on me, fuck it I called her my mom. She was all I had at the time, and she was all I needed. But I decided to go after the only person I cared so much about. 

With only a few thousand pounds in my shared bank account, I asked my Aunt if I could try and become like my older brother. She was attached to me so it did take me some time to pursuade her to let me become an idol too but eventually she let me. I thanked her so much I think I cried that day. Then I was set, I was going to Korea. 

I was going to be an idol but I knew it was going to be hard. I knew Korean but I still needed to say a few words in English since I wasn't fluent at it. I joined a underground dance group and everyone got scouted but me. This was when I met Ryujin and Youngmin. I spent a 6 months trying to get into an agency, back to back auditions until I was scouted by someone from RBW.

I spent 6 years working my ass off. Initially I was scouted because I was 'handsome' or something I honestly don't know but I kept trying to increase my skills. Soon enough I was stable in singing and I produced a few songs. Then I got into writing lyrics for some songs, I was also set to debut in ONEWE but I refused because I felt like I was going to pull their talents and skills down. So I trained more soon enough I was a backup dancer for Mamamoo and I started rapping. I was then set on the becoming a Leader of a group that would debut called VRomance, again I refused to debut so soon. 

I had no time to sleep and I started to perfect my rapping and I was able to do really hard choreographies. Solar noona helped me with my singing, Moonbyul noona helped me with my rapping and Hwasa noona helped me with my stage presence. Wheein noona was helping me with my dancing along with Yuho and Wooyung from ATEEZ. We 3 were in the underground dance group nobody but us knew about and I still can't believe they finally debuted. I got over Ryujin quick and focused on training. Then Youngmin debuted in MXM, we started hanging out again after that, forgive and forget they say. 

Soon enough I perfected my Rapping, Dancing, and Writing skills, well that's what the teachers said. I wrote my own lyrics like Moonbyul noona because I was inspired by her the most, she was a good person to look up to. Soon enough I met Kyung-jae and he helped me with my singing since my breathing was still unstable at the time. My producing skills improved since I was in the studio with ONEWE and MAMAMOO trying to learn from whatever they were doing. All of that in 6 years, it was a crazy journey, probably sounds like it's straight out of a fictional story but it did happen. This is why I think miracles exist.

"Yah! Y/n-ssi! Stop just standing there and unpack the groceries so I can cook something." Kyung-jae said which made me laugh, him? Cook something? He might burn the whole dorm down.

"Sure Hyung." I said laughing at him.

"What? Why are you laughing at me?" He said furrowing his eyebrows.

"Let me cook Hyung, I don't think you even know what happens in an oven." I said chuckling taking out the frozen foods first.

"Yah, I know what happens in a microwave. So what's the difference with a microwave and a oven?" Kyung-jae said as I just shook my head.

"See? Just go get Jun-seo for me will you?" I said as I closed the fridge and getting my apron on.

"Okay, cook something good Y/n!" Kyung-jae said running away. Okay, let's get this chicken ready then.

To be continued...