1D & 5SOS Doctor/Dentist Imagines

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I feel like my little world is crashing down on me. I'm just a little human being out of billions living in a small town, thats in a small city, thats in a first world country which is in North America, 1 of many continents. Im a little spec of this world, what am I? 

I want light in my life. I dont want darkness which covers my mind, maybe I was different a year ago but I change every day and accept it. Everybody has to. 

Is it just school, family that pressures me? yes

Is it my confidence tumbling?

Is it my friends?

Is it because I'm a hormonal teenager?

NO! For once, I'm being confident and standing up for myself. I feel like crap because of my past, because of my experiences, not because I'm a hormonal teenager thats on her period or whatever. There more to a girl than that. 

Just because I migrated from a third world country to a first world country at a young age doesnt mean I'm a genius! Nobody understands it! Why do my teachers think I dont have any confidence in myself? I DONT!

I'm overwhelmed because my parents expect me to get a 36 ACT score. 

Taking 3 honors classes next year isnt enough for them. 

"no honey you're pressuring yourself too much" Ok they say that to me but my brother. 

"Take an AP class!"

All I'm left as is darkness in a humongous world but all I want to be is a little spec of light in this dark world that contains my future.

I want to be done but I cant and I dont know why. Theres still something thats keeping me here. My parents think I'm some kind of a weirdo and that Im changing and adapting another culture. Maybe I am. the truth is I AM! any normal person would because I cant be there little innocent daughter for the rest of my life. 

I'm overwhelmed because of my classes. The only two people who really understand me are my 2 teachers, but 1 more than the other.

I ignore my math teacher at points because I get really over whelmed but then I apologize to him later. He tells me its fine because I just underestimate what I know.

I may be a 13 year old girl but theres a lot inside of me that my family doesnt know but people I havent even known for a whole year do. Im ashamed to say that.

I cant tell my parents. I told my mom, she though I was a crazy student and I was disrespectful but on the other hand my teacher understood how I was feeling. 

Being the youngest and being pressured isn't easy. 

I'm really overwhelmed! I want to stop caring but I cant and I dont know why which is also really frustrating. 

THIS IS THE MAIN REASON I STOPPED. IM OVERWHELMED