Spoken Words Poetry By OtakuZone (Part One)

Insomnia

Another night has come.
I lay quietly on my bed.
Staring at the ceiling.
Will this be another dreamless night?

I lay there, thinking.
About how well my day went today.
Everything's pretty normal, but...
My life is... Well, not really.

You see, I haven't been getting enough sleep these past few days...
And because of that...
Bags started to form under my eyes.
I started to lose weight.
My attitude and behavior started to change as well.

I started to ask myself, " why? "
Why is this happening to me?
But then... I remembered.
Ah yes, it's because you left me.

It's been years, actually...
But the pain is still there.
The memories we shared, keep on haunting me.
The picture of your smile seems to be etched in my mind.

No matter what I do...
I still can't bring myself to forget you.
I still can't get you out of my mind.
We could've lasted forever!
But you left me in the blue.
And now, I'm lost in the dark once again because of you.

Those days we spent together are now nothing but a fragment of our tragic past. They're nothing but memories now.
Painful memories that haunts me.
A painful and tragic past which caused my insomnia.

Every time I close my eyes, I can see you standing there.
But as soon as I reach my hand to touch you... To feel your warmth against my skin...
I can't reach you. 
You were smiling...

But I knew that that smile was not meant for me anymore...
And that fact feels like a stab at my heart. To see you smiling and laughing with someone else, kills me.

I wonder...
If I were able to move on and forget about you...
If I smiled and laughed with someone else...
Will it hurt you?
Will you feel the same pain I felt?
Will you be able to sleep well?

Maybe someday...
This insomnia won't affect me anymore.
Maybe someday, you would rrealize my worth...
That you threw away a real  diamond in exchange for a fake gold.