Short imagines with BTS ships-Book 2

Namseok (sad)

Namjoon sat in his and his boyfriend's apartment feeling a knot in his stomach form. It devoured his stomach and spread to his chest where it planted itself like a disease. He felt like he couldn't breath probably. He was looking at a picture of his boyfriend from the party he was at the day before. A guy was holding an arm around his boyfriends waist and his lips were kissing Hoseok's cheek. Another picture showed Hoseok looking loving at him. It killed Namjoon to see it. He loved Hoseok more than anything. He was his entire world and they had been together for three years. Hoseok hadn't been home since the night before as he was sleeping with a friend who lived close to the club they had been at. Namjoon knew Hoseok could be home any minute and his heart was breaking slowly. He had no idea what to think. He never thought Hoseok would cheat on him and he still didn't really think he would but if he hadn't known Hoseok, he would think they were a couple judging from the pictures. A tear rolled down Namjoon's cheek and he let it fall. He tried desperat to not make any conclusions but it was hard. Namjoon's head snapped up as he heard the front door open and close.

"Hey babe." Hoseok's voice sounded from the hall. Namjoon wanted to answer but didn't have the heart to. "Babe?" Hoseok appeared in the door to the bedroom.

"Hey." Namjoon said but even he could hear something was off.

"Are you okay?" Hoseok asked and Namjoon couldn't help the tears starting to stream down his face. Hoseok frowned and moved to Namjoon but when he reached out to comfort him, Namjoon stood up and walked away. He needed a minute to gather himself. "What's wrong?"

"I-I love you a lot Hobi and I trust you but I saw pictures from the party yesterday and no matter how much I try to find an explanation, I don't seem to be able to." Namjoon said and Hoseok stood up and walked to him.

"I love you too but I don't know what you're talking about." Hoseok said. His face was in an expression that showed half worry half confusion.

"This." Namjoon said and went to the computer and showed Hoseok the pictures. Hoseok's expression dropped and he looked down, that single action made fresh tears fall down Namjoon's cheeks.

"Listen I can explain." Hoseok said and reached out to touch Namjoon but Namjoon wasn't sure if he should let him touch him. Though when he felt Hoseok's hand touch his own, he felt desperat for Hoseok to hold him and touch him. It was like he was feeling a hundred emotions at the same time and his mind was working hard to figure out what he should do. Namjoon just wanted to be held my Hoseok, no matter what his next words would be. So he walked closer and burried his head in Hoseok's shoulder. Hoseok seemed confused but in the end put his arms around him. "I don't know what you've been thinking happend but let me start by saying, I did sleep at my friend's last night. Alone. But the guy approched me and we talked and danced for most of the night. Not close or anything, it wasn't like that. I told him I have a boyfriend right from the beginning...He was really funny and we got along well. When that picture was taken as you can see he kissed me on the cheek, I didn't give him permission and the other picture I know it seems I'm looking at him all in love but I'm seriously not. Though I can't lie..he kissed me and I..I let him for a little while. Maybe three seconds. Then I pushed him away, I told him again that I have a boyfriend and he said it didn't matter. I pushed him off him and went straight out of the club. I was really drunk so I just stumbled home to my friend and passed out. I know I should have pushed him away right away, I know I should have stopped him before he even got the chance. I'm really sorry Joonie. I really love you and I really hope you can forgive me. I was just so drunk and before I knew it, it happend. It meant nothing to me." Namjoon listened as he told what happend and his heart ached when he heard the guy had kissed him and Hoseok had let him. Namjoon pushed himself away and walked away needing a second to gather himself once more. Hoseok let him be, probably understanding he needed some time.
Namjoon closed his eyes and tried to imagine breaking up with Hoseok. He felt as someone had punshed him in the stomach and all air was stolen from him. He would be completely lost without Hoseok. He was his comfort and his rock. At one point he would probably get over him but it seemed impossible, he felt he would regret it. Then he thought about staying with him, it made a knot in his stomach form.

"How can I know that was all that happend? How can I know you're telling the truth." Namjoon asked without turning around.

"You can't know, you can only trust me." Hoseok said and he sounded concerned with a hint of sadness and regret. "I've never hurt you before and it will never happen again. The whole thing just made me realise I never want to be with anyone else." New tears whelmed up in Namjoon's eyes. He sounded sincere and Namjoon couldn't stand it anymore. He turned around and hugged Hoseok.

"I believe you and I trust you will never do such thing again. I love you way too much for this to break us." Namjoon said and he could feel himself feeling content with his choice. Hoseok hugged him back tighly like that way Namjoon could never leave him.

"I really love you too and I'm sorry I put you through this." Hoseok said and Namjoon lifted his head but stayed in the embrace.

"All I want from you is never to mention it again and kiss me." Namjoon said and Hoseok smiled a little. He kissed Namjoon gently and then more passionate. When they pulled away their foreheads leaned against each other. "How do you feel? Do you have a hangover?"

"A little." Hoseok answered and Namjoon took his hand and let him to the couch. "I already got a pill."

"Lay down. I'll get some salt chips and cola, that usually does the trick." Namjoon said and got it for him. He put it in on the table and then sat down so Hoseok could have his head in his lap. He ran his fingers through Hoseok's hair and turned on the tv. Namjoon sat in his own thoughts. He trusted Hoseok with all his hearts and he had really never hurt him so he had no reason to doubt him. He knew a life without Hoseok was a life without happiness. The two of them needed each other more than anything.

"Are you alright?" Hoseok asked as he looked at Namjoon.

"Yeah I'm fine. I really love you." Namjoon said and smiled slightly to him.

"I really love you too." Hoseok said and smiled back. They kept watching tv and slowly Namjoon relaxed. They spend most of the day, trying to repair the slight damage in their relationship but at the end of the day where Namjoon lay in Hoseok's arms, Namjoon knew in his heart he would never leave Hoseok. Their love for each other was bigger than anything else and it would take a lot to break them and in the end nothing ever did.