Haikyuu Imagines

sakusa x reader

part two.

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Ever since that day, things became awkward for me. The girls really tried ruining my reputation and some believed it but some didn't. I didn't care too much because I knew that they'd only be overjoyed if I made a mess out of it.

I would still hear gossips about me doing shit and that's why we broke up but neither him nor I have said anything and let people think the way they do. I didn't have the strength to tell people the truth and neither did anyone ask me about it so I didn't bother to speak first.

    He started wearing masks and gloves again, disgusted by every little thing people do. His hate and fear of germs came back only a few days after things ended between us. I don't exactly know if we ended on a good note but, who cares if we didn't?

    Probably one thing I hate is being in the same classroom as he is in, I would still see him around me and hear things about him. I always try to avoid getting too involved with things that concern him or our past relationship, I don't like hearing them.

    I don't know if what I did was right but I think it was right. I have tried to move on with life and forget about getting stuck in the past, I'm doing well on my own actually. I also wore makeup like how I wanted to and I feel better about myself.

    "O-Ow.." I bumped into someone and I fell on my ass. It's him. "S-Sorry.." I held on to the wall to stand and saw his eyes twitch like he was trying to say something.

    "Just watch where you're going next time.." His voice was soft and he got my notebook from the floor. He seemed like he was holding back. I took it from him and he immediately left.

    "Sakusa-kun! I made you cookies!" He never lost his admirers.. but he lost...

    I put my notebook on my desk and head outside, I want to be alone. I went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror, fixing and retouching my makeup. I'm only wearing powder and lip balm, it's not much. I felt a metal-like thing on my wrist so I rolled my sleeves up.

    I am a shithead, why am I even wearing this? It's supposed to be worn around the neck but it's too obvious if I wear it that way so I wear it as a bracelet, though it's kind of uncomfortable to be wearing it like that. It's his gift.. supposedly it's for our anni... ha..

    I stare at the pendant, it's cute. I honestly like it a lot, he picked out the perfect necklace. It's neither too much nor is it too less, never knew he has an eye for things like this. Never expected that he'd ever be in a relationship with someone as unbearable as I am.

    Going back to class, I got stared at by random students. I don't know what they're thinking of but they're stares are scaring me, it's as if they were judging me with every step that I take. I just want to live a peaceful life and that breakup was— it just made things worse.

    At least he's got his admirers and his friends to cheer him up when I have completely no one to help me out. If I have to cry, I cry on my own. I run up to the rooftop to hide myself from everyone, I'd ditch my classes if I need to breathe. Staying in that classroom while holding back my tears make me suffocate.

    They had a switch in the seating arrangement, he ended up right in front of me. No one wanted to switch with me because they said that I'm a curse. I think I know that already, just with those stares people give me. It's obvious and no one really needs to tell me that.