life goes on (completed)

heartache

2 Weeks Later | Pam's POV

"I don't wanna do this. I can't do this today."

I said to Fergal as I walked out of the bathroom.

"It's gonna be okay. There is no way he's getting the twins or Rose."

Fergal said as he wrapped his arms around my stomach.

"Four Months today love."

Fergal said, kissing my cheek. I smiled as I placed as hands on top of his.

"I love you."

I said as I kissed his cheek.

"Gabi? You ready to go?"

I called as I got out of Fergal's grip.

"Yeah."

Gabi mumbled as she walked out of the nursery with Rose on her hip.

"Don't cry baby."

I said as I wiped the tears off her face.

"I can't lose her!"

Gabi sobbed.

"And you won't. I promise. Everything is going to be okay."

I said as I kissed the top of her head. I'm just hoping that my words are correct.

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"What happened?"

Sasha asked as we walked out of the court house.

"He got Addison and Ashton. Thankful he didn't get Rose cause that would've destroyed Gabi but...he got the twins."

Fergal said as he looked at me. I'm just an absolute wreck. How the hell could someone give the kids to a monster like him? All I wanted was to curl up into a ball and cry my eyes out.

"Oh, it's okay Pam. You can always appeal."

Sasha said as she hugged me. But her words didn't seem to bring me any comfort. I don't think anything could bring me any comfort at this point.