Pam's POV
"Pam, I still think you're making the wrong decision."
Leonie said as I sighed.
"There's no point in living anymore. All I feel is pain when I'm on Earth. All I feel is hurt. My whole body aches everyday because of the beating I took. Fergal didn't care enough to save me. If I don't have him, what's the point in living?"
I asked her.
"He does care about you."
"No he doesn't. Why doesn't he love me anymore? What did I do for him to hate me so much? Why doesn't he care about me anymore? It's not even about Carter anymore. It's about Fergal. He is what drove me to kill myself. All I want is for him to love me and I can't even get that."
I sobbed into my hands.
"He loves you Pam. I know he does. He's at the hospital every day with you."
"Because he feels guilty about not saving me. He isn't gonna give a fuck about me once I leave the hospital. He just doesn't care about me anymore."
I said as I wiped my tears.
"Trust me, I know my son. He loves you so much. You're a goddess in his eyes. He doesn't love anyone more then he loves you. Just believe me. The only person he wants in this world is you."
"Well he doesn't show it very well. Especially after letting me take that beating."
I said as I stood up and walked away.
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life goes on (completed)
Fanfiction"even if I move on, I'm still always going to only truly love you." {final book in Baylor series}
