Dream SMP ~«One Shots 2»~

★Everything To Me - Sapnap

Warning this chapter may contain inappropriate language and mature content.

CW - depressive episode, angst, struggles with self harm

Channel(s) - Sapnap, Dream, GeorgeNotFound, Karl, Quackity.

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Sapnap's pov

"Sap.. can we talk..?" Karl asks softly, knocking ever so gently on my door before entering.

"Sure!" I say happily, my smile fading just as quick as it appeared as I see Karl's serious expression. "What's.. up..?" I ask hesitantly as he comes and sits on my bed.

He sits criss-cross just opposite me and I gulp. He sighs softly, fidgeting with his shirt as he avoids looking at me. When he does, a stray tear falls down his cheek.

"Karl.. what's wrong?" I ask softly, moving to wipe his tears like I usually do. He flinches back, catching my wrist in a cold hand before letting go as it falls limp.

"Quackity.. asked me on a date.. couple nights ago.. and I went.. and lied about it to you" Karl says softly. I open my mouth to speak but he cuts me off with a heavy breath. "He asked me out.. and I said yes, Sap he's my boyfriend" he then says and I just stare blankly at him.

"You.. and Quackity..?" I ask softly and he nods whilst biting his lower lip.

"I'm sorry.. I couldn't wait any longer.. and, and I guess I still had underlying feelings for him. I didn't even hesitate before saying yes, I'm so sorry Sap" Karl says softly and I nod, feeling a sudden rush of emotions.

"I-.." I start, getting choked up on my words the minute I speak as a lump forms in my throat. "I understand Karl.. it's okay.. I understand and I wish you both great happiness" I say softly, breathing deeply to avoid crying in front of him.

I force out a smile, watching Karl sniffle and begin to smile too. He wipes his tears with a soft laugh.

"Thanks Sap.. I hope you find your person one day" he says softly and I hum.

"We've still got recording tomorrow right? With Jimmy?" I ask softly and he hums.

"Be up bright an early" he says softly before leaving the room.

As soon as I hear his light footsteps slowly walk away from the room, I let tears trickle down my cheeks. A soft sob falling out as I curl in on myself.

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"A monster.. at this hour? That's unlike you Sap" Jimmy says softly as I sit on a bean bag before recording. Eyes swollen and droopy as I sip at a monster in my hands.

"Just tired.." I say softly, foot tapping against the floor as my heart beats loud in my ears.

"Where's Karl?" Chandler asks, joining me on the bean bag before hugging me ever so gently.

"Organising his next date with Quackity.." I mumble softly, having overheard him talking with Quackity in his office.

"Weren't you gonna.. like ask him out, thought that's what we were helping with?" Chris asks and I shrug.

"I fucked up.. I lost him.. I am the reason he looked to another man for love and appreciation" I mumble sorrowfully. I can't believe I caused him to need to get a new partner.