Star Garden Of Love

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I wonder what's in store for me? Will there be a better place in heaven? I've been thinking about what can I actually do for the next. This is probably hard for me to find a certain answer on how am I going to meet the adorable boy of my dreams. But I can't do it.

I'm afraid I would embarrass myself in front of everyone. I only think about him smiling down at me as our both hands touched for the first time. I just want to tell him how much I love him so dearly. But where am I supposed to go? And where can I find him?

I wished he was real to me so that I can be happy. But this is all just a dream. A strange surreal dream that becomes into a dreaded nightmare, merely just an illusion or a picture in my own head. I always thought about him and that pretty face of his.

I should have known all that. Things are not the same as this one to be exact. Could this be love? He was the bane of my existence that should never erased from my own darkest memories. I feel different towards him, somewhat a bit nervous. I am nothing without him.

Isn't he so cute? I imagined him having blonde hair and deep blue eyes like the Zora Sapphire. If I could find a perfect guy like that, then today will be my first lucky day. What am I gonna do if I lose? Then I'll go back to being a nobody and nothing will. Aww, good grief...

But what's the point anyway? Why can't I see him? I am all alone forever. Love will find me a better place up there, I swear it. I can't just sit around here and do nothing. I don't want to lose him or I'll never see him again. It broke my heart in halves.

If I can't see him, I won't be able make it in time. Unrequited love is nothing but a total complete mess. I tried and tried in searching for him but I haven't found the right one yet. I thought he loves me more than ever but it's not the same as before. This made me feel broken on the inside. Everything seems hopeless.

I have failed multiple times and I was too late, very weak on the knees. Then, I broke on the verge of sad tears. He was nowhere to be found like he didn't exist to my world. He never showed up with hugs and kisses. Was he just in my vision or a fictional figure?

Ohh, yeah...right. I think I get it now. The world here is nothing compared to this one. But am I the one who felt pity towards my love life? I sighed in defeat if I never have the chance just to say something to him. I became rejected, suddenly turned out feeling left behind like a deserted island.

I'm such a failure to love. I let my own entire world drown in sorrow and all the colors have washed away. I couldn't do anything to have him back....but the pain is too much for me to take. Will my dreams ever come true? Or what if it will fail? I admit it...

This is all helpless and my hope is lost, gone for good. I should just send him love letters but he can't accept it or my apologies. Life would be terribly lonely at times like this. I was picked on, get rejected or being bullied or....nobody seems to notice me back there.

When I feel down or forever alone, I can listen to the emotional sounds of music; mostly for the chills such as aesthetic, lo-fi, 8-bit pixels or chillstep are my favorites. It cures my poor sad soul, lets my mind slip into a heavenly dream to keep me safe no matter what.

Now how am I gonna find him? When I looked up in the sky, I can feel the cool breeze blew around me which it also reminds me of him. What if he was still out there somewhere? This has to be an explanation. Is he watching me as if he were just a spirit?

That could be him...so I must find a way. But where and how? Which way should I go to? This confuses me a lot. He must be around here, I think. I can smell his strong scent which is like morning dew, mixed with sweetness.

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