My Guardian Angel (Angel!Link x Religious!Reader Oneshots) PART 2

Kiss The Boy

Note: This story had a slight twist background of Charles Schulz's 'It's Your First Kiss, Charlie Brown'. So I leave it all the rest to you.

"I'd give anything to talk to her...she'd never like me, though...I'm so 'blah' and so stupid...I wonder what would happen if I went over and tried to talk to her! Everyone would probably laugh...she's probably be insulted someone as 'blah' as I am tried to talk to her. I hate lunch hours...all it does is make me lonely. During class it doesn't matter...I can't even eat...nothing tastes good...RATS! Nobody is ever going to like me...lunch hour is the loneliest hour of the day." (Episode: 'You're A Good Man, Charlie Brown')

"Grown-ups are the ones who puzzled me at Christmas time....who, but a grown-up would ruin a beautiful holiday season for himself by suddenly attempting to correspond with four hundred people he doesn't see all year?...." (Episode: 'Charlie Brown's Christmas Stocking')

"I know why they have HOLIDAYS. They have holidays so people can get together and have some fun....so why am I ALONE?" (Episode: 'It's The Easter Beagle, Charlie Brown')

"I've done a lot of stupid things in my life...I don't understand it. I went trick-or-treating and all I got was a bag of rocks..." (Episode: 'It's The Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown')

Your POV

I always ended up being depressed on holidays, especially on Valentine's Day because I don't have a suitor or a boyfriend who I liked. What if we broke up? Got into a fight in the middle of a crisis? Those negative thoughts which leads me to unrequited love.

Kids, teenagers, and adults already had a lover or someone who liked in their lives. Well, except for me...none of the above. Without a lover, I'll be crushed to pieces as I watch my heart suffer and locked up in a cage like a dying bird.

I wonder if a boy who could give me a Valentine. The wind beneath my wings to set my heart free, soaring away to the sky. What if I had a first kiss on him? I blushed furiously like a ripe tomato because I couldn't control it any longer. I'm just too shy...

The only problem is I have a fear of blushing (erythrophobia), meeting someone (anthropophobia) or in love? (philophobia). I thought being in love was supposed to make me happy all the time but I can't handle it. Whenever I see a happy couple, I always put on a depressed expression on my face (like Charlie Brown do).

I don't think I can do it...I'm not sure to start a new life with a boyfriend. I'm afraid he hates me terribly or tries to hurt my feelings. If he doesn't like me, I ended up having a phobia. I feel my whole body shaking like a leaf and hands quivering like I was as cold as ice. I'm such a crybaby or a scaredy cat when it comes to love.

I placed my hand against my chest to feel my heartbeat. I feel like I was stabbed by thousand knives torturing my skin, watching my wounds bleed. I hide myself under the hoodie so that no one will see me sad. What am I going to do and where am I supposed to go?

Nowhere...I feel bad for myself. This place where I lived here is not safe either. I just have to run away from the pain. I can't get ahold of it and I don't know how to get rid of this feeling anymore. I'm as broken as glass inside my poor soul filled with tears.

Yes, I'm like the 'Charlie Brown' of the group. Being the bald blockhead, the lonely type of person with mental issues, always unhappy during holidays and never been in love in my life. As a teenager, I can understand about how he feels in the show.

I watched it over hundred times. If he's happy, I am happy. If he's sad, I get sad. If he cries, I cried too. Whenever I watch the series of the 'Peanuts' franchise, it brings me good memories as a child; just like the nostalgic, jazzy piano theme song composed by Vince Guaraldi. It's the most recognizable musical piece I've ever heard.