ANTI - Oscar Diaz

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I paced the room of one of the Santo house nervously

My fucking brother.

They took him.

I should've done a much better job at protecting him. 
I should've been there for him
And now he was gone.

Again

What made it even worse was that The others were gone as well.
It had been 29 hours. And i had their families breathing down my neck to find them.

They blamed me for this.
But i had no idea what the hell i did.

Los Santos has been laying low
So i have no idea who would want revenge.

My thoughts went to Robyn.
I wondered if she knew about her cousing going missing.

They were always so close.

I was waiting for Chico and Sad eyes to come back with at least something when the doors opened.

I turned around thinking it was the two when Benji walked in.

Behind him Keisha then Laurice and in walked Robyn.

She looked thin.
Her skin no longer glowed like it used to. It was Pale.
She looked sick.
Tired.

And i was instantly filled with guilt 

I did this

"What is she doing here?" I asked Benji who had walked over to me.

"She needed to know Hermano. That's her primo." I nodded hesitantly

She didn't need this type of stress right now.

I held my breath as she walked over to me.

"Got any leads?"

I tried to search her face for any type of emotions. Resentment. Anger. But none of it was there 

She just looked worried.

"No, we're trying to figure that out they were taken on the way to Ruby's house from School."

A normal walk from school turned into a kidnapping for them.

"Okay. Keisha can help. She's good with these tech stuffs. She can track their phones and get a location and then we can move from there." I looked over as Keisha got her laptop out  

I looked down at Robyn. Who was eyeing me.

"Can we talk?" I knew this wasn't the time but i genuinely wanted to talk to her 

To apologise.
To at least tell her something

She shocked me when she nodded her head yes.

She followed me to the backroom and sat down at the table facing me.

"Look i wanna say I'm sorry." She cut me off 

"I know you weren't the one at the shooting. Keisha told me. We actually have proof that it wasn't you so no need to apologise." She kept her blank eyes on me.

"I should be the one apologising for coming into your home and breaking shit startling your pregnant girlfriend "

I winced at the word girlfriend  

"She's not my girlfriend Robyn she's just.."

"Carrying your child.  I know. I'm an adult i know how this works. That's how unprotected sex works." I still couldn't read her.

I was good at that but she wasn't giving me anything now. Just words coming out of her mouth 

But i could hear the slight venom in her tone 

I wanted to know if she was mad at me.
If she was sad.
I wanted to know how she really felt.

"There was no unprotected sex. It's just things happen."

"I know Oscar. It's life."

We sat there staring at each other.
It was awkward the tension high.

I had alot to say but i didn't know where to start.

I wanted to kiss her face and tell her i love her and then apologise.

But i couldnt do that.

I wasn't going to rush or force myself onto her.
She needed to deal with this the way she wanted.

And i was going to be here waiting and rooting for her.

"How are you?"

She laughed tiredly

"Exhausted. I can't sleep. All i can think about is the doctor telling me about our-"  she stopped herself.

Our what?

"Do you know if it's going to be a girl or boy?" She asked.

I didn't know whether this was a good sign or not.

"It's going to be a girl."

She closed her eyes and her breath hitched 

"I'm happy for you."  Her voice broke at the end and she stood up 

I wanted to reach out to her and pulled her back towards me and just hug the living daylight out of her.

But instead i sat down and let her walk away from me.

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