Day 141

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by gabriellatpwk

by gabriellatpwk

Date: 4.2.22
Joke: hey, have you heard about the new corduroy pillows? they made headlines!

Quote: (a poem by E)
"My partner in crime,
My very best friend
G (Full Name)
I'll love you til the end"

Summary:
Today was good, and all over the place, literally. So school was pretty blah. I brought pumpkin choco chip muffins for my German class that everyone thought were amazing, basically froze while biking home from school in the cold rain. Then at climbing, we did the same exercise as Monday and Wednesday, which was a little bit annoying but ya know can't do much. I bumped up the intensity of the exercise though, which was nice to try hard and such. And then i just got so tired, so tired. My body put itself on autopilot... which was I n t e r e s t I n g... so when im tired like that, I either become incomprehensible, speak German like fluently, or become British and pick up that accent... today was all three... I confused my friends a lot, but it's alright now hopefully. Im really cold and I have tons of blankets and sweatshirts and stuff on. 🎶let's waste time chasing cars around our heads 🎶 so yeah my day was kinda everywhere... im exhausted, and I hit my funny bone while lead climbing and it hasn't stopped hurting, and I banged it really hard on the wall too soooooo.... Im Kinda worried bout that but whatever

Im sorrry im alllover the place... it's hard on me cause I don't really like feeling out of control, like I don't like not doing the motions and stuff, like I felt outside my body and I hate it... it scares me. It's like im along for the ride and it's terrifying.

Also, there were a ton of people at the climbing gym today and I got a little claustrophobic, which also kinda freaked me out. I don't get space claustrophobic, I get people claustrophobic, so like when there's a lot of people near me and like slightly too much in a space, even just like a few too many, my brain freaks out a bit cause it's just like what are all these people doing this isn't normal.... I hate ittttt and it honestly kinda hurts that my friends don't pick up on it but then again it doesn't happen that often so I'm like they haven't seen it enough.

eugh why do emotions have to be so hard? Why does life have to be so hard

I'm gonna end this and sleep cause this is getting me nowhere

Thanks for reading!
Love you guys <3

Ps don't die 🙃