Love Returned From The Ashes

Blood Stained Family

Nerissa pov: Kiara-senpai suffered, Reine-senpai suffered, Mumei-senpai suffered, and I am being made to assume Subaru-senpai and Lui-senpai also suffered along with me.

Birds are free.
However...
The path they choose...
may be drenched...
In blood...

I don't know why I thought about that in poem form; it doesn't even work like that, but it is something, I suppose.

"Nerissa What are you thinking about?" Shior~rin asked

"Uhhhh...." I mumbled

"Yeah, Nerissa, please share!" Biboo said

"Fine—I was thinking about suffering!" I told all of Advent

"Bau Bau, you have problems, Nerissa!" Fuwawa said

"Yeah, I agree with her, Bau Bau!" Mococo said

"Oh, Mococo, I just want to suck on your belly button," I said.

"You what!?" Mococo yelled

"Did I stutter? I want to suck your belly button," I said to her calmly.

"Honestly, same," Fuwawa said calmly.

"Aaaak! Two perverts, and one is my sister!" Mococo yelled

"Moco-chan, it's not perverted!" Fuwawa yelled

"It is Bau Bau!" Mococo yelled

"It isn't Moco-chan, I promise!" Fuwawa yelled at her younger sister.

I sighed and turned my body, noticing Aradia and Malpha at the side of me.

"You are looking worried, Nerissa," Aradia mentioned to me. I wondered how she knew, and then again, she is my sister.

"What's wrong?" Malpha asked

"Oh, I was just thinking that my sisters and I are only suffering; we were born to suffer. It feels like I don't know; it just feels like something is wrong with fate if I'm forced to live like this, you know," I said.

"Nerissa, you know, our mother said if you want, you can always come home, and we can work together to be demons of sound and presesses of light," Aradia said.

"What is wrong with you? I don't want to go home. What is with your plots to try to get me to come home?" I asked

"It was worth a shot," Malpha told me.

"Rissa, we should go to your home; we are dating after all, so it would be nice for you to officially introduce me to your family." Shior~rin said

"Aaaaaaaa—Shior~rin, don't say that!" I cried to her because she knows that we are not just putting up a front; she is toying with my feelings, and besides, I don't want to go back home at all.

"What the hell are you worried about?" Aradia asked me as she began to massage me.

"Oh, I don't want to go home at all, even if it is to show you my girlfriend and formally introduce you. Dad will bring up a questionable conversation, and Malphis II doesn't care about anything that I'm doing; it sucks," I said.

"But mom, Malpha, and I are interested, Nerissa, so it doesn't matter; although we already have been formally introduced to your girlfriend, I think mom would enjoy it if you talked to her more and showed her your woman because she wants to at least know you can't give her kids." Aradia said

"Malpha, do you think mom loves you the best?" I asked

"Well, she does care about me a lot, but I don't think she loves me the best," Malpha said.

"Well, I talked to mom about it; she said she doesn't pick favorites, but I don't know," I said.

I stood there silently, waiting for Malpha to reply to me.

"You are my little princess, Nerissa," my mom told me.

Those words are something that I think about all the time. I'm her princess. I don't know how serious that is.

"I know Malpha is your favorite." I said

"Aww-sweety I don't pick favorites." Her tone was sincere, but I know not to trust her tones. Her voice is going to control me or lull me into a false sense of security. In order to stop this, I stabbed my thumb nail into the side of my left pointer. The pain made it hard for her to focus on her voice.

I need to trust my mother more. I shouldn't think that she is always trying to make me do what she says by using her powers to control me.

"I realized I shouldn't clip my daughter's wings; she has a point. How will she grow up to be a big-string raven if we take privileges away and fight her own battles?" My mom stated

Things are different now. I have my mother's blessing to do whatever I want, and I won't let it go to waste.

"I don't think mom loves me the most, Nerissa, genuinely, and I want you to be aware that even if it seems I've gone down the path of whatever our mother wants, it's because I wanted it, not because of her." Malpha said

"You have to think about this objectively: do you think mom would have agreed to let Malpha be a prophet of sound if she had a say?" Aradia asked

I gave it some thought and realized mom didn't want Malpha to become a prophet of light; she didn't want that at all. She would prefer if her daughter were still a demon, but she can accept that she has been purified. She is a good mother. I can appreciate her for showing her love without being overbearing, and even when she is, she has a good reason for being so as she is trying to protect us.

"Nerissa, don't overthink things; we are a family," Malpha said.

"Hey, I want to go back to the suffering topic," Biboo said.

"What do you want to add?" I asked

"You seem to want to kill your sisters suffering, so how will you do that? What is Advent's goal now? How are we going to help?" Biboo asked

I heard her question and cleared my throat: "We kill the gods!" I said

I know that sounds like my solution for everything, but this time I have something that I want to grasp. I have a plan...