My life's meaning |✔️

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Lauren Monique

"Dada, go potty" Delilah mumbles holding herself

Before Elijah could do anything Sienna picked her up taking her behind a tree, Elijah and I looked at each other questionable then looked at the tree.

Delilah sighed loudly walking towards us a few minutes later with a big smile on her face.

"I'm good" she nods picking a yellow rose out the ground "yellow"

"I have no words" Elijah shook his head disbelievingly

"It's better than using a porter potty" I shrug glancing at it across the field

"It's brand new, there's nothing wrong with it" he waves me off, sitting behind me nuzzling his head into my neck. "lavender, you always smell like lavender"

"Mhm" I nod closing my eyes as he wraps his arms around me "lets fuck, lets have a lil sex"

"Let's not do that, our kid is a few feet away from us and Sienna is already looking at us questionably"

"I'm joking" I chuckle turning around to face him "I want to go on a road trip or go out of the country"

"We can do both but first I need you to start going back to therapy, and do your own homework. Tiana, Remo and Benjamin shouldn't be doing it for you" Elijah says lowly

"No, Sage keeps asking the same question everytime I go. As for the homework, I don't see the problem you do some of it too"

"I won't do it anymore, but if you need help with something I'd be more than happy assist you"

"I want to go somewhere that has snow, I've never seen it before. It's never snowed in Cali and it never will" I mumble to myself

"Okay" he nods glancing around, Delilah caught his eye as she danced through the field chanting softly "I love her"

"I do too" I grin watching a smile make its way to his face "and she loves you too"

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Rolling my eyes I stood up going to the door but she stopped me, guiding me back to the couch.

"Monique just say it!" Sage sighs rubbing her head frustratedly "I know I promise my brother, I'd help you but it's as if I'm talking to a wall. I need you to open up"

"Tell Montana I'm fine, I don't want your help" fidgeting with my hands I glanced at the door "the session ended ten minutes ago, why won't you let me leave?"

"You can leave" she shrugs motioning to the door "after you tell me what you're afraid of"

"Clowns" I grumble out, standing up again "I've told you this countless times, I'm terrified of clowns. When I'm around them my breathing holtz, my legs go numb and my brain goes into overdrive. Eventually I'd pass out if I can't move away-happy now?"

"What are you afraid of?" she repeats her questions leaning back in her chair folding her arms

She's really making me want to choke her ass out

"Bye Sage, you can tell Montana about the session. I know he's going to ask" I waved her off reaching for the door knob

"Monique?" she questions

"What girl?" I whine rubbing my stomach as Squirt kicks "we're hungry and I want to fix that"

"What are you afraid of?"

"I really want to slit your throat Sage, like seriously shut up with that stupid ass questions" storming out of her office I went outside meeting Geovani at his white SUV

He opened the door then helped me into the backseat. Noticing my glare he raised an eyebrow but didn't say anything.

I ignored his worried and questionable glances as we left the hospital parking lot, he stopped at Wendy's to get me some to eat then took me to my house.

Elijah sent me tones of pictures of watches that he'd like my opinion on. I don't know why he wants my input, he'll be the one wearing it not me.

When we came to a stop and my door opened I looked up, Remo waved with a small grin on his face.

"Geo. . .why did we stop at the entrance to our neighborhood and why is Remo blocking my way so I can't close the door?" I frown as Remo unbuckles my seat belt

"Daily exercise, and your weekly rant session with Remo" Geovani chuckles as his brother pulls me out the backseat carefully "I'll meet you guys at the house"

Closing the door he pulled off leaving Remo and I behind.

Sighing deeply I wrapped my arms around Remo's waist hugging him, slowly he did the same while resting his chin on my head.

"Sage is starting to piss me off bro, she makes me want to kill her so bad. I want to tear out her throat everytime she asks me that stupid question" I grumble into his chest "I wont do it though, she's Montana's older sister"

Pulling away I poked Remo's side earning a playfully glare from him as he swats my hands away.

'Have you ever asked yourself what you're truly afraid of?' Remo signs raising a eyebrow

"I know what I'm afraid of" I nod rolling my eyes, walking in the direction of the house with him beside me "I told her fifteen times that I'm scared of clowns but it's no point, she's still bugging me about it"

'We both know that's not the only thing that scares you' his eyes scans my stomach knowingly

Huffing in response I looked away choosing to ignore him, I heard him snap his fingers but I continued looking away.

Remo clapped his hands trying to get my attention, when I didn't turn to him he grabbed my chin doing it himself.

"What?" I mutter lowly

'Say it' he signs

"Leave it alone Re, I don't want to talk about this anymore" the house came into view as we made it up the hill, speeding up my pace I saw the door open

Remo snaps his fingers again causing me to glance at him, he got in front of me with a disapproving expression.

'Say it out loud and move past it, that's what your therapist wants' he signs exhaling deeply

"Babe, did you pick out which watch looks better yet?" Elijah questions pulling up beside us, he looked back between Remo and I before parking his truck and getting out

"It doesn't matter what I think, it's your watch not mines" I shrug going into the house with both of the men following behind me

"Your my lady, I need your opinion on everything I do" he stresses pushing his phone in my line of sight "so how about the black one?"

"It's nice" I nod turning into his office, plopping onto the love sac in the corner I pulled my blanket over myself "you have two business calls with your rivals that's in Italy, let's get this done quickly then maybe watch a movie later?"

"Look at the pictures I sent you please and pick one out" he mumbles with a nod going to sit behind his desk "you look lovely in that dress by the way"

"Thanks Papa" I smile softly going through our messages to look at the pictures again, after a while I locked the phone putting it beside me "I like the rose gold watch"

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