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Lauren Monique

"Elijah, wake up and give me my damn baby!" I tossed the remote at him weakly attempting to wake him up. "Elijah!"

He opened his eyes slowly, when they were finally open he stared at me for the longest.

"Please give me my baby"

"Sorry" Elijah stood up quickly going around the bed, picking Squirt up he placed him in my arms carefully. "What name did you pick for him?"

"Amir Hassan and I want him to have both of our last names"

Nodding in response Elijah sat beside me, I raised an eyebrow wondering why he keeps giving me puppy dog eyes.

"You know you could've died? All I could've thought about was what am I going to tell Delilah and my mom, how was I going to raise our kids without you. Without you I'm stuck, it's hard to express myself through words. I don't want to go back to the person I was before I met you and I know if you were to leave me I'd go back to my old ways" he mutters lowly gripping my free hand. "I don't want no more kids, if this is how it's going to be everytime you go into labor. I can't handle the thought of losing you"

"I'm sorry you went through that but you're not going to lose me, we're in this together plus that wouldn't have been fair to me. I would've died before seeing my baby" huffing I glanced down at Squirt admiring his cute little baby face. "He's going to love me so much, he's never going to want to leave my side"

"So your going to spoil him?"

"No, I'm just going to shower him in love and affection duh"

"Okay, the nurse said you should breastfeed him. So get to it my son is hungry" clapping his hands he grins watching Squirt open his eyes.

"Hello Mama's baby"" unclipping the gown I adjusted Squirt. "Elijah stop staring, you're making it weird"

Chuckling he leaned forward pressing his lips against mines.

"I love you" he mutters lowly

"I love you too, now let me feed my son" nodding I grinned softly pushing him away

"I liked the name Micah" Elijah whispers glancing at Squirt. "but Amir seems to fit him"

"Be nice to the twins and maybe when they have kids some day they'll let you name one of their sons Micah"

"You really think Tiana will give Remo kids?" scoffing playfully he laid beside me pressing another kiss to my lips.

"Yes I do, Tiana already spilled the beans about her want for kids and I'm positive whenever her and Remo are ready they'll birth an army" shrugging I looked around the room. "Where is Mama Vivian and the girls?"

"At the house, I wanted you and Squirt to myself until you're able to go home. I tried to get Delilah to stay with me but she cried so much my mother had to take her home, she left Tatum and had a meltdown"

"Her and that damn cat" shaking my head I rested it on Elijah's shoulder. "FaceTime someone in the house, I want to talk to my babygirl"

"But Babe" he whines brushing his fingertips against Squirts cheek. "can we talk about us first?"

"What about us? Have you finally figured out that we're aliens from out of space?" I question curiously

"No, about how I almost lost you and our son in the same day within seconds?" turning he propped himself up staring at me intensely. "after you passed out and the nurses kicked me out, I went with Squirt down the hall and they couldn't figure out why he wasn't crying or breathing. I cried myself thinking I was going to lose you guys but then he took his first breathe and coughed. The nurses were confused so they ran tests back to back, it all came back clean. He coughed instead of crying, in all the baby books I've read all the babies cried but ours didn't. I think that's weird"

Instead of responding I just stared at him, he looked genuinely confused and adorable at the same time.

Eventually he fell asleep with his arms wrapped around me, I almost fell asleep as well until I got a whiff of something foul.

"Seems like a job for Daddy, huh?" Smiling I pinched Squirt cheek softly causing him to grin. "yes, it is"

Gently passing Squirt into Elijah's arms I elbowed him then played sleep when he woke up to see a freshly shitty baby grinning at him.

"Really Lauren?" Elijah sighs slapping me upside the head before getting up

"Thanks baby daddy" chuckling I turned and watched him scrunch up his face in displeasure as he changed Squirts diaper

"That's not what I am, I'm your husband"

"My ring finger says other wise, baby daddy" holding up my hand I winked at him.

"Its only a matter of time before I change that, winter or spring wedding?" nodding Elijah smiles to himself as he dispose of the dirty diaper

"Mm winter and out of state, I always pictured it in a open field full of snow and white roses everywhere but now that I'm thinking about it. If it's snowing you won't be able to see the roses" frowning at the last part I looked away

"Just leave it to me, you'll get the wedding of your dreams plus more"

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The sound of a ringing phone woke me up, shaking Elijah's shoulder I pushed his phone towards him.

"Hello?" his voice comes out groggy as ever once he answer

Six weeks? More like a few days

"Is he alright?" jumping out of the bed he paced back and forth grabbing all of his belongings.

Until suddenly he stops, his mouth open slow as tears build up in his eyes.

"What's wrong?" sitting up I reached out to him only to have him backup out of my reach. "Elijah, what's wrong?"

Slowly he hung up his phone, putting it away in his back pocket. He looked at me through teary eyes and murmured lowly.

"Angelo is dead"

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