Lauren Monique
"No fool, that's ugly as hell" I shook my head at his ridiculous idea
"It's everything she likes" he frowns
Why couldn't this man just go with a simple party theme like; pj mask, boss baby, Care Bears or finding Nemo
Wait no. . . I'm saving the last one for Squirt
"I understand that but you need to pick at least four marvel characters and four princesses, Tiana's already getting started on the decorations and Aaliyah's got the desserts covered"
"Okay, did you call your friends and Bakari?"
"Yeah, they'll be here a hour before the party starts" I nod going to Delilah's room "time to wake the demon"
"My Princess is not a demon" Elijah slapped me upside the head grumbling to himself
"Hit me again and I'll beat yo ass" I smirk squeezing his butt
"Stop" he groans
"Babygirl wake" I chuckle shaking Delilah gently
"No" she whispers turning on her stomach scratching her shoulder "I'm sleep"
"Watch this" Elijah crosses his arms leaning against the doorframe "breakfast"
Delilah sat up wide eyed, getting up quickly she ran towards the door but got stopped by Elijah.
"Happy birthday, Princess" he greets her with a smile as he picks her up
"I'm two now?" she questions holding up two fingers
"Yes" I nod
"I'm grown" she sighs happily wiggling to get out of Elijah's arm
"Well no, no you're not" he chuckles sitting her down
"But I'm two" Delilah frowns looking at her hands, holding up four fingers she wiggled them "I'm this much"
"No, that's four" he shakes his head bending two of her fingers downward "that's two"
"Buon compleanno alle mie caramelle!" Sienna shouts bumping into Elijah and she runs into the room, scooping Delilah in her arms she placed open mouth kisses all over her cheeks. (Happy birthday my candy baby)
"Morning Sie"Delilah giggles rubbing her nose against Sienna's "wan eat, Dada got food"
"She gets her greediness from your side of the family" Elijah murmurs unamused, glancing at me
"Fuck you" rolling my eyes I left them going downstairs with my keys in hand, squeezing my swollen feet into my slippers I went into the kitchen and took out two bottle of apple juice out the fridge. "Humans, I'm leaving!"
"Wait for me, let me put my shoes on!" I heard Elijah shout jogging down the stairs, he went over to the front door and put on his shoes quickly then tied them
"I can't ever go somewhere by myself" I frown mumbling to myself, it came out barley over a whisper "are you sure you don't want to stay here with Dee and Sienna?"
"You don't want me to go with you?" Elijah questions slightly disappointed
"I just wanted to be alone for an hour or two but it's fine I'll go get my truck " avoiding eye contact I moved around him
"Babe" he steps in front of me with a soft gaze, resting his hands on my hips he frowns softly "I won't go, okay? Call me if you need anything and don't drive over the speed limit please"
Nodding I blew out a breath relieved, I tugged the bottom of his shirt indicating that I wanted him to lean down as I tried to kiss him.
"Be safe, I love you" he murmurs against my lips "I know you want to be alone and I'm honoring your wishes but I'm still sending Matt to follow you. He'll keep his distance"
"I love you too" I nod giving him a hug then went out the door with him staring at my backside
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"I'm at the light, I'll see when I get there" I sniffled into the phone before hanging up
Wiping my face I put on black shades before turning into right into the cemetery.
Parking in the Gravel in front of the large gates I left everything inside the truck before getting out and making my way to far side of the cemetery towards the grave stone I've grown to love.
Sitting on a bench across from it I sighed glancing at the stone and the one next to it.
"Sunflower" a voice mutters taking a sit beside me, wrapping one of their arms around my waist.
"I miss her so much" I mumble lowly with tears rolling now my cheeks, looking up I notice he had tears building up in his eyes as well
"Я скучаю по вашей тете в мире" Alik whispers softly, wiping his eyes quickly. (I miss your aunt more than anything)
Alik and my aunt were married for seventeen years before she was killed, they traveled the world together, killed people together. Like Bonnie and Clyde only difference is they didn't rob anyone and only killed people they were fighting or people that were trying to kill them.
Alik wanted kids badly but my aunt couldn't produce any so they took me in and cared for me as their own-whenever my Bastard parents would let me leave the house-Alik taught me how to speak Russian fluently and how to sneak up on people like a true spy and my aunt taught me how to kill and use technology to cover up my tracks.
"That's my son" I pointed briefly to the grave stone beside my aunts "sometimes I don't know what I'm fighting for-why did I live and not him? Sometimes it feels like I'm only surviving and not living"
"Ты сражаешься за ту маленькую девочку, которую ты сегодня унес дома и маленькую малышку, которую ты носишь" he taps my stomach gently, pressing a kiss to my forehead he leaned his against mines closing his eyes. (You fight for that little girl you left home today and the little baby you're carrying)
When I didn't respond he sighed softly pulling away and tilting his head back, his tears never stopped flowing and now his breathing started becoming choppy.
"Прекрати выживать подсолнухам и начать жить, если ты умрешь сегодня, ты будешь счастлив оглядываться назад в жизни, которую ты жил?" Alik questions (stop surviving sunflower and start living, if you were to die today would you be happy looking back at the life you lived?)
"Parts of it" I shrug thinking about the people I've met and let into my life "if I were to die today I'd left behind a daughter and a soulmate"
"Ты должен отпустить то, что мешает тебе жить своей жизнью до самого конца" he sniffles glancing at his watch as he stands up. (You need to let go of whatever's stopping you from living your life to the fullest)
"I will" I nod quickly standing up wiping my tears away
Sage is going to have a field day in our next therapy session
"Позаботься о себе, подсолнечник, и если тебе нужна помощь, я тебе позвоню" hugging me tightly he pressed a gently kiss to my head before leaving. (take care of yourself sunflower, and if you need help remember I'm one call away)
I stayed there for another twenty minutes running my fingertips against Isaiah's grave stone listening to the birds around me before I started to make my way back to my truck and heading home.
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My life's meaning |✔️
General FictionA Stephen James book! (BWWM) "What the hell? No, get your ass in that house and beat Elijah's ass" she pulls me up "do you want to be with him?" "Of course but I'm not fighting him anymore" I shrug carelessly "if he wants me he needs to show me" "Be...
