Finding myself

Chapter 113

Blaze POV

My grip on my wolf was too lax as he tore through countless vampires to get to Zara.

Now Sam and I were finally circling each other and we needed that strength. That extra push. My wolf had nearly gone crazy without the bond. We couldn't stand each other anymore.

We needed her presence in our mind. Her light. We were dying without it.

Sam and I immediately clashed, our teeth and claws and nails leaving deep wounds on each otter. Ones that you could take time to heal from.

The only that kept me going was the knowledge that she was still on our side and had our backs. She was our only hope to win this. We could see her sitting there meditating with her eyes closed, probably cooking up something.

Suddenly I felt someone push his way to me and I saw it was the vampire I tackled earlier, Scott his name was I think. I remembered Zara mentioning him to Dex to look out for. He circled me too. Two against one. And suddenly Dex and Athelia joined me.

He had handled everything with Athelia and now they were both here.

But they couldn't shift so we may have been evenly matched. It was a wonder very few shifted through all that wolfsbane but we were on a time constraint.

Everything that went wrong in my mate's and my life, Sam was the cause of it. My mom's death, Zara's parents abandoning her, us missing out on our mate bond. It was all his fault.

He smirked at me and I had a flash from my childhood when he stood above my mom's corpse, smiling so wickedly, the flames around him licking him but not harming him in the slightest. He had turned and winked. So terrifying. These were suppressed memories that Jem had helped me lock away.

And now he took away Zara. Those were three women in my life. If the vampire king could get the ultimate revenge on the werewolf king then what could be bigger than this? He smiled the same cruel smile again and before I knew it, I attacked him with reckless abandon.

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Zara POV

Zian, I need your help.

I called out to no avail. My attack on Lex was proving to be difficult even for me. And I had created her.  Damn, she was one tough cookie. She was so slippery. It was like trying to grab an eel mentally.

I grabbed at her and once again she almost slipped away. Not so fast! She had done this enough times for me to predict it. I finally caught her.

I spied out her password gaining access immediately and getting to work on the electric fence around the perimeter that kept the wolves in.

After my actions the past few days it had become clearer to Zian that I had changed. Forget killing the pack, I wasn't even willing to fight against Blaze anymore. I didn't know what she was thinking. But I could figure out it wasn't anything pleasant. We just weren't of the same wavelength anymore.

I think about getting my father's help but I had seen him and mom join Blaze. He needed my dad more right now. And when that was done they would need to tend to their own packs. Most alphas had gathered their packs quicker than we thought and now they were fighting in sections. The training was paying off. 

I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned around.

"That mate of yours is a piece of work." Scott huffed running a hand through his hair. "Anyways, Sam sent us here so no one could interrupt you" he clarified and behind him,  Sean and Sage joined nodding.

They still find know that I had switched sides and my guilt increased. Sam must still think that I was trying to hack onto WLAN. And I had pulled up my files so as to avoid any suspicion. Sage was the political mastermind with Sam and he quietly perused the files after he gave me a quick smile. My guilt increased tenfold as I smiled back. 

I hoped against hopes that Raven wouldn't jump out and fight them. I met her eyes across the hall as she took on another wolf but I didn't dare nod or show any signs. But she understood anyways.

"You've done well." Sage complimented. He hardly ever did that.  These guys didn't know what I was doing. I was still working on Lex, my eyes glowing blue, it was only a matter of time before I turned off the fence.

As long as I didn't have Sam's attention on me I should be fine. Somehow, he could tell with a glance whether I was betraying him or not. Even if I masked my expression. At first, I had thought I did a particularly lousy job of hiding myself but Sam has a pretty good intuition with things like that.

I didn't have to strain as much as before now that I had access into Lex. I just had to find the command for the fence and turn it off.

I kept an eye on Zarine as well. Till now the gang had been doing a good job in protecting him. Especially Jason. They still considered him one of their own.  That was good.

Stacy was the only one who wasn't in the group. She was confronting Jem for how she hurt Jason while he stayed away. Drake would occasionally help her out but it looked like a fair fight. I knew a few words were exchanged between them but I didn't know what. And Jem had her nails out, she fought like a vampire, no longer pretending to be a wolf. 

Amelia was doing a fantastic job by using her luna powers to calm down the elderly and children. Bless her heart.

Scott and Sean laughed and joked about something. They were sure they were gonna win and weren't worried at all.

It was a strange feeling to see the gang and Sam's brothers all in the same place, so carefree. All of my loved ones are at each others' throats. Ready to die at any time. It was a strange feeling. As if I was finally home with family.

One of the families whom I was going to betray. 

I had finally found the fence. It's time I contributed something to the fight. I took a deep breath. It was now or never.