Finding myself

Chapter 23

My phone beeped bringing me out of my sleep. For a moment, I got confused seeing my surroundings. There were so many voices in my head and it gave me a head ache. I immedieltly blocked the link. This is why I hated packs. I had to deal with their noise outside. Now inside too?

I suddenly shot out of bed and looked around my room. And then I remembered. The ceremony that let me into the pack, Blaze's speech and what happens tomorrow. My head ached, remembering it all.

I want to forget what he said. I wish it wasn't true. At least not so soon. I wish I had some more time. But then again, the faster it all comes, the faster it finishes.

Blaze had let everyone into the pack in the first part of the ceremony. What would normally take a long time due to the number of newcomers only took a few minutes as he is the Alpha king? His wolf had the power to make everyone submit to him at the same time.

He didn't have that many problems, other than Zian of course. Zian would have made a scene. She hated submission and that too to him. She is very dominant and submission doesn't come that easy for her. It doesn't work for me either. The only difference is that when my wolf sees things in the absolute black and white, while I use the middle region of logic and go according to the plans.

At first, when the first wave of power hit where everyone bowed (we were in our wolf form), Zian was the only wolf standing. Thankfully no one saw as we were in the back. She had looked intently at Blaze's wolf who looked back at us with sorrow and regret.

His scent had excited her... to fight. She was so bloodthirsty. She wanted his blood. She was ready to forget all of Sam's training. And in that moment, she almost overthrew me as I was not expecting such a strong reaction from her. To say I almost got beaten by my own wolf. I was fighting with myself.

It was hard honestly as I wanted the same. But patience always bears fruit. Our struggles had become inevitably clear to Blaze. He must have thought it was because I was his Luna that I faced the difficulty. He couldn't be more wrong.

But he or more likely his wolf had the decency to force everyone to bend their heads down so that they didn't see my struggling. It would be an embarrassing scene for him anyway. His power not controlling me. He thought I was, but in the end, Zian submitted to me, not him. I promised her and myself that a better opportunity was coming up. I thankfully managed the situation. I am fairly sure Blaze didn't know that I submitted in the end due to my willpower and not his dominance. And even if he did. Who cares? Let it give him a scare.

Everyone else heard my growls but didn't know who I was. But needless to say when all was said and done, and Blaze's power waves had stopped, everyone had taken a look around, trying to sniff me out. But there were some exotic looking wolves among the newbies. When the other pack members joined us, it was just the general checking out if others wolves and soon I was forgotten.

Though Zian didn't go unnoticed. She was a pure color. And gold. And extremely rare combination. Others hardly had gold spots. Our fur is a shiny coat and our neon green eyes simply stand out no matter what.

Let's be blunt. We are quite the catch and really not all that common. Actually, the first in such a combination. But people can be a bit more delicate about it. Females had had wide eyes of awe and the males had sniffed around for a bit as I could have been a potential mate. But then. Blaze's wolf growled and interrupted. Jealousy. I just smirked internally.

Jason's wolf also rubbed up against me and stood next to me to show support and protect me from the hormonal males. I didn't appreciate it as I can take care of myself. But when I saw the effect that Blaze's wolf had, I just let it continue.