Band imagines

he/him- chris motionless

TW// transphobia, ends happily :)
d/n- 'dead name'

"What's up with you?" My mum spits as I walk into the kitchen, she's still mad that I cut my hair off. She says I look like a disgrace. She says I look like a boy.

"Nothing.. nothing at all. Has dad called?" I asked fumbling over my words, she doesn't like my dad, she didn't like the kind of music he made, whereas I on the other hand loved motionless in white. It was a one night stand and I wasn't planned, she kept in contact with my dad but not very often would I be allowed to see him.

"What do you think? He's not going to want a daughter who looks like a boy is he?" She blows out smoke from the cigarette she's currently smoking.

"I-I'm not a girl.. I want to be a boy.." I told her proudly, I have nothing to lose.. Her face changes to show her anger and pure hatred for me. "You what?" I sighed keeping my head down and walking to my room. I should have kept my mouth shut..

"Oi! Get back here I'm not done with you!" I hear her angry footsteps follow behind me, I sit crossed legged in the middle of my room. "Who do you think you are?! You were born a girl! You will always be a girl!" I felt my eyes tear up knowing I'll never truly be a boy and I'll never be accepted..

I'm completely trapped in my own body. I can't even call it my own.

"You don't need these anymore then!" she took the basket that I kept on my desk full of sanitary products and dumped them into the bin by my door.

I just stared at her in disbelief. My jaw clenched tightly as I forced myself not to cry, I wouldn't give her the satisfaction. The door slammed, I immediately got up and pushed my dresser in the way of the door so she couldn't get in.

"You are no child of mine you freak!!" She yelled banging on the door. "I want you out of my house!" I put my headphones in turning the volume all the way up to drown out the screams of my mother. I wouldn't even call her a mother anymore.

Tears ran down the side of my face, I wasn't able to hold them back anymore. I stared at my ceiling running my hands up and down my chest which seems flat due to the binder I had on but I knew that it was all fake.

I still had breasts which made me stand out as a woman. I pressed on the contact, I didn't even know if it was still his number it's been that long.

Dad🤍

I let it ring, the longer the same sound played the more anxious I grew.

"Hello?" His voice sounded through the phone. I sort of stayed still not knowing what to say. "Hello? Who is this?"

"Dad?" I asked hoping he couldn't tell I was crying.

"D/n? It's been so long.. how are you?" I wiped my nose and laughed a little. "Can I come visit maybe? If you're okay with that"

"Of course! Please do!" He said excitedly. I smiled gratefully though he couldn't see me. "I'll see you soon yeah?"

"Yeah.." I whispered letting the phone call end. I packed a bag and quickly changed, I grabbed the little money I had and jumped from my window.
I ran down the street to the bus stop, when my bus arrived I paid the driver and walked to back of the empty bus. It was late so I didn't expect anyone else to be on here.

I leant my head against the window listening to the lyrics of timebomb by motionless in white. Yes Chris is my dad but it was the only way I could hear his voice as often as I wished.

I still liked to wear makeup and be a little feminine but I wanted to be a boy deep down..

I was so deep in thought I almost missed my stop, thankfully the bus stop wasn't too far from dads house. I walked the little way I had to go hoping I remembered correctly and soon enough I walked up his porch and knocked on the door.

The door swings open and I'm met with a 6 ft plus body, I'm immediately pulled into a hug and brought inside. "You cut all your hair off since I last saw you! You look so beautiful princess!" He cooed and cupped my face in his hands. I smiled and hugged back not wanting to tell him I got kicked out, I doubt think I can handle losing both of my parents in the same night.

"Is that d/n?!" I hear from behind dad, he moves revealing ricky. "Ricky!" I dropped my bag off my shoulder and ran to him. He caught me in a hug and held me tightly.

"Oh my god I've missed you so much!" I held him tightly until he set me back on my feet. "Come see everyone else" they both walked me into the living room where I saw the boys sitting on the couches.

"Justin pass me the bottle opener please" ryan asked leaning over the table to grab it from him. "Nice to see you three again" they all span around looking over the couches before running towards me. Vinny was the first to hug me, once he let go I got hugs from both justin and Ryan.

"You're back! And looking amazing girl!" I winced slightly but I didn't let it show. Once we calmed down a little we all sat around in the kitchen occasionally throwing food at each other.

"How did you get your mum to agree to let you come here?" Ryan asks casually, knowing that my dad has struggled with being able to see me for years now.

"I uh- I didn't.." that catches everyone's attention. "You ran away from home?! your mother is probably going crazy" dad says mostly concerned.

I sighed knowing he probably deserves to know. "I got kicked out of the house.." everyone stays silent for a moment. "Why?" He asks clearly trying to keep his calm.

"She was mad I cut my hair-" vinny cuts me off. "You cut that yourself? Damn, you can do mine next" I laugh at him before continuing.

"I told her I go by he/him pronouns and she flipped out. She threw my sanitary products in the bin and said that I wouldn't be needing these anymore then and she called me a freak-" he pulled me into a hug not letting me speak anymore. "Oh love.."

"So we have another boy in the group?" Justin asks with a smile. I nodded, "it's okay if you don't want me I'll go find a place to st-"

Ricky cut me off this time. "Don't be stupid. You're one of us, welcome to the motionless in White House.. what do you go by?" I felt like crying, I was being accepted..

" y/n, and I use he/him pronouns.. I used binders currently but ive been saving up for top for a better one since this one is getting too small"

"We'll order one in for you, anyways let's go get you situated in your room, son." I smiled looking at him for a moment before jumping off the counter.

"I wanna show him where it is!" Justin ran up the stairs infront of us. "No! I do!" Vin ran after him, we laughed following them up.

I was finally around people who accepted me and I didn't have to be someone I'm not around.