Band imagines

Loving you hurts- josh balz

Y/n's POV

I sat in the passengers seat of Josh's car, I was nervous to meet his mother for the first time.

"Do you think she'll like me, Josh?" He chuckles resting his hand on my thigh. "She'll love you I promise." We finally arrive and I climb out of the car, he soon stand by my side and grabs my hand comfortingly.

He knocked on the door and soon his mom opened it, her smile was warm and inviting. "It's so good to see you Josh! Are they your significant other?" Josh smiles and nods looking at me with his soft smile.

"They are, mom." He responds, proudly.

His mom quickly pulls me in for a hug, "oh you must be Grey! You're so beautiful, sweetie. Come on I'll put the kettle on."

"Thank you." I reply with a wide smile on my face.

When his mom was out of sight I turned to face Josh. I had tears pooling in my eyes and my heart felt as if it was made of lead. "Who's Grey?" His face had since changed from his perfect smile to a face full of guilt.

"I-I don't know.. she must have you got confused. Don't worry angel I love you and only you." I shook my head as we sat on the couch, I forced back my tears and swallows the lump in my throat.

"How long have you been together now?" His mom asks, sitting across from the coffee table from us.

"Almost a year, ma."

"Ah, so adorable." I texted my best friend with shaking hands.

Me: call me and get me out of here please
Opened 4:31 pm

Chris: is everything okay?
Give me a second
Opened 4:32 pm

"Grey, are you hungry?" His mother asked, I shook my head slowly. "No, I'm good thank you." I smiled.

My phone rang a few seconds after, I quickly picked sit up excusing myself. "Hey by any chance could you come over? I could use a hand right now." Chris' voice filled my ears, it was the only voice I wanted to hear at this moment.

"Yeah I'll be right there, are you alright?" I asked, acting like I was worried for him. "Come over please.."

"I'll be there in 15, hold on." I ended the call turning back to Balz who looked confused. "Can you take me to Chris' he's upset about something, it's an emergency." He nodded quickly grabbing his jacket.

"Hey mom, something come up at work we have to head out." He tells her kissing her cheek. "It was nice seeing you both, I hope to see you again Grey."

"I'm sorry to have to leave so soon, it was so nice meeting you Mrs Balz" she chuckled and hugged me tightly.

We were soon leaving and the car was silent, it wasn't comfortable either. He dropped me outside of Chris' house and before he could speak a work I slammed the car door and ran inside.

Chris was stoop in the kitchen anxiously waiting for me, "what happened? Are you alright?" He asks urgently. "I was meeting Josh's mom for the first time and she called me Grey. The entire time she was calling me Grey.. I think he's cheating on me Chris.." his face soften while my cheeks stung from the tears falling at a rapid pace.

"Oh love.." he sighs hugging me tightly and bringing me over to the couch. We sit down and I cry into his chest, "I love him so much.."

"I know you do, y/n. You don't deserve this at all.." His tone is soft, he's too kind.

"You're too kind for this world. Too kind for shitty men too. I know he's my bandmate but he's fucked up."

"I want him to be happy. If he prefers this other person I'd let him go and be with them. I care for him so much it hurts." I sniffle, my phone rings multiple times until Chris silences it's sound for me.

It was Josh.

"I should get back to him," I sigh standing to my feet and wiping my cheeks free of tears. "I'll take you home, pack a bag and you can stay here with me.." I nod slowly, he grabs his car keys and we go out to his car.

Why did this have to happen today?

What did I do wrong for him to cheat? Did I upset him? Where did I go wrong..

"Throw me a text and I'll pick you up as soon as you're ready to go. I love you y/n.."

"I love you too Chris. I'll see you soon." He nods and I climb out of the car. I met Balz through Chris, I visited him on warped tour one year and we quickly became friends into lovers.

I walked inside and upstairs to our bedroom, Josh laid there crying. I sat beside him not saying a word.

The love I have for him is so real and so pure that it hurts in more ways than it should. His smile makes me melt and feel safe. His laugh is like music to my ears, I will always love him more than he'll ever love me and it stung to think of.

All I want is for him go happy and if it's not with me then so be it.

This is why I'm sitting here with him crying in my arms and tells me how sorry he is.

Over and over again..

"I never wanted to hurt you. I promise." He cried. I couldn't help but let out a stiff laugh as I miss with the hood on the hoodie he was wearing. "I know, I know." I tell him.

"Do they make you happy?" I ask dreading the answer. He lifts his head up looking me straight in the eyes. "She does, but you make me happier." He wiped his tears as he spoke.

"Made." I whispered under my breath.

"Y-y/n.." he stuttered but I stopped him before he could continue. "Shh it's okay, just go to sleep okay." I said and held back a fresh set of tears.

"Will you be here when I wake up?" He feared I would leave him. I can't stay here, I nod nonetheless knowing that I won't be. I would leave the moment I knew he was asleep.

I would leave him to happy for good.

Once he fell asleep I moved his body off of mine and packed my bags, I texted Chris who was ready to come and get me.

I kissed his head before walking out of the room, why was this so hard? He cheated on me, I should hate him. I should be furious at him, but I'm not.. I'm the exact opposite.