Ohne Dich (Sequel to Stirb Nicht Vor Mir)

Chapter 78

February 10, 2004

I still hadn't gotten over what I did to Ville. I caused him so much pain and all he did was love me. I was beating myself up constantly and even started harming myself. 

My parents checked me into rehab from December-January and I have gotten better. 

Ville and I had absolutely no contact with each other. Rumor had it that he was dating some other girl which pained me so much and every single time someone brought him up in an interview, I immediately started bawling and one time, I even walked out. 

My mom wanted me to live with her. She didn't want me to hurt myself or anything and wanted to make sure that I was alright until I was able to get back on my feet. My job paid really well, but I just needed some stability. 

But, I did meet one of the kindest women in rock ever: Melissa Auf Der Maur. We had been really close and I hung out with her frequently. 

There was a knock on the door, so I got up and opened it. Lo and behold, there she was. 

"Hi!" She hugged me. 

"Melissa!" Ashton ran over to her and hugged her. 

"I have news," She said. 

"Tell me," I told her as we sat down on the couch. 

"I'm going to be leaving again soon to go on tour."

"Aw man!"

"I know, I know."

"With who?"

"Just a bunch of random people."

"Like who?"

"'The Offspring' and another band."

"What other band?"

"No one," She smirked. 

"Tell me!"

"No. You'll be upset."

"Just tell me."

"'HIM'."

I was not expecting that. My heart shattered. "Oh, really?"

"See?! I didn't want to tell you because I knew you'd be upset."

"It's fine, Melissa."

"Really?"

"Really. I mean, the band's kind of everywhere."

"Kind of," She chuckled. 

Melissa picked Ashton up and started tickling him. He was giggling and I smiled. 

"So, how's your love life?" I asked her. 

"I'm still with Andrew."

"That's really good."

"I would ask about yours, but...you know."

"Yeah."

She gasped. "You know what we should do?!"

"What?"

"You should come perform with me or sing one song with me!"

"I don't even know any of your songs."

"That's alright. We'll do a cover. What's your favorite band?"

"'Slipknot'."

"'Slipknot'? Really?"

"'HIM' can't be my favorite band anymore."

"We'll do a 'Slipknot' song. You need to scream really hard, though."