Ohne Dich (Sequel to Stirb Nicht Vor Mir)

Chapter 131

May 20, 2011

It all happened way too fast. I already moved into Ryan's house and Corey moved out of our house. 

I took Everleigh and Ashton and we drove to Ryan's house to spend the night there. It was already really late-since I helped Corey move out-so I had to hurry. 

I knocked on the door and Angie opened up the door. 

"Hi!" She waved. 

I smiled and walked inside of the house and put Everleigh down in her bed. 

"Mommy, we have to wait for Daddy," She said. 

"Daddy's back at his house."

"No, Daddy's supposed to be here."

"Everleigh, remember how Daddy and I told you that we won't be together anymore?"

"Yeah."

"We don't live together anymore. You're going to live in two houses."

"Two?!"

She was acting like she hadn't heard any of this before. 

"Yeah," I chuckled. "Goodnight, baby."

I gave Ash a hug then walked out. I walked up to Angie and Ryan. 

"Heyo!" Ryan hollered. 

"Shh!" I placed a finger over my mouth. 

"I'll be back," Angie kissed Ryan then walked out of the house. 

"Cheer up, Charlie," Ryan sung and I just glared at him. 

"I fuck up all of my relationships, Ryan," I started to softly cry. "With Ville-"

"Ville was going to be gone."

"Corey was gone more than Ville was!"

Ryan sighed. "It's alright. You love who you love-you can't control it."

"I hate how much I've been crying recently. And I have to go find somewhere to work."

"I'll help you, okay? And I know that Angie will, too."

"You two are perfect together."

"I don't know if perf-"

"Perfect. But, hey! You excited for 'It's Always Sunny'?"

"Shit! I have to call Rob!"

Ryan called Rob on his phone and put him on speaker. 

"Hey man!" Rob said. 

"Hi!" Ryan said. 

"Shh!" I said yet again. 

"What's up?" Rob asked. 

"Well," Ryan answered. "Just calling to see how things are."

"They're fine."

I thought about how Rob and Kaitlin were together and I got so jealous-they were so cute together. And how Charlie and the Waitress were married-I didn't know her name. And Glenn and the girl in the 'D.E.N.N.I.S. System' episode. 

I started crying at the thought of me not finding someone. 

"Hey, Adette," Ryan said softly. 

"Adette's there?!" Rob asked. 

"Yeah."

"Can I talk to her for a second?"

"ADETTE!" I heard Kaitlin shout. 

"Shut up, Kaitlin," Rob said. 

"You know what-"

"Adette," Rob said. 

"Yeah," I sniffled. 

"You okay? I heard about you and Corey."

"I'm fine."

"She's obviously not fine, Rob!" Kaitlin shouted. "Why would you ask her that?!"

"Because I was being nice!"

I looked at Ryan and smiled as I saw he was chuckling. 

"Adette," Kaitlin said. 

"Yeah?" I asked. 

"You and me are going to get together sometime and we're going to get drunk off our asses-"

"No you're not!" Rob yelled. 

"Rob, don't make me throw this pillow at you!"

"The ultimate threat of the year," I joked. 

"I know, I would be so scared," Kaitlin added on. "But, does that sound like a plan?"

"It sounds like a plan. Thanks."

"Of course. And if you don't want to be in the episode, I understand that too."

"WHAT?!" Rob yelled. 

"No, it's fine, I'll do it," I chuckled. 

"Alright, it'll be alright," Kaitlin assured me. 

"Thanks, Kaitlin."

"You're welcome."

"Ryan, back to business," Rob spoke. 

I waved to Ryan and walked into the bathroom and took a shower and tried to relieve myself of all the stress that I felt. 

All of my relationships had failed. I had really thought that things were going to last with Corey. We went well together and now look at us-not talking anymore. I hated that we ruined Everleigh's chances of having a perfect family. She didn't do anything wrong and she was being punished for our actions. I would never forgive myself for that. 

I could never forgive myself.