Tokyo Ghoul - NEST

Fear over Love

"We need to have a mask that we don't take off."
- Uta (Tokyo Ghoul)

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Levin POV

Walking into the court yard, I find a somewhat annoying bug near Eto. Amon is still alive it seems. I sigh and walk up behind him, calling out.

"Hey... pointy eye brows." I say, making him turn with surprise.

He shifted his weight, looking at me to Eto. It seems he knows he's overmatched. I look over at Eto, she seems to be passive, waiting to see what I will do.

Fine, then I'll amuse her for the time being.

"Leave or I'll kill you." I said blankly.

He flinched, but didn't back down, standing tall. I sigh and let out a small chuckle, I let my kagune come loose and get into a ready stance, he should be easy since he doesn't have a weapon.

"Why are you with them... your... a good kid, Levin." He said, still clenching his wound. "You hate Aogiri, so why be with them?! They've ruined lives and connections... their evil!"

I stare at him with a blank face, then talk.

"It is better to be feared than loved, if you cannot be both." I said, making Amon flinch from surprise. "Do you know who said that? A very smart man said that... you see Amon... why I joined them is because I'm tired of them looking down on me."

"I realized that love was the one thing that was holding me down. It's the thing that makes everything hurt when something is tooken from you. So I simply crushed those feelings, they aren't needed.

"To be feared... now that's something nice. To be looked at with fear is called power. Don't you see Amon? I am Aogiri' power. Ever since I joined, I've been looked at with jealousy, and fear. And I've found that I love that feeling.

"This world is a forsaken place. It's full of hypocrisy, love, jealousy, greed, and wrath. What both sides fail to see is that Ghouls and humans are insects plaguing this world.

"What I seek is information about this world... information about myself. Your not needed for that, so I will kill you if you get in my way. I need Eto to lead Aogiri to capture Kanou, if I can have him then I can find out many things about myself."

Finally finished, Amon stands with wide eyes and an open mouth. But he doesn't move an inch. But that look in his eyes, fear. Good, fear me. That's what I want.

Love is not what I need, it makes you weak. I need power, and to do that I need people to fear me. I need power to find the things I need. Power to protect. But what exactly am I protecting? Am I being a hypocrite myself? Not like I care.

But in the end, I let my kagune disappear, and I turn towards Eto. "Lets leave. Kanou escaped." I said.

Eto didn't say anything as I walked past her, but she did follow me into a nearby rooftop. As we were walking away, I swear I heard someone call my name.

I turn around and look at the streets, but I don't see anything. It was probably my imagination.

Kaneki POV

I yelled his name at the back of the lab. Rize and me had made it to the lab, but it seemed to be already over, dead corpses litter the ground from the fighting.

CCG was starting to show up. I grit my teeth in irritation and kick a metal bar on the ground.

"Dammit!" I yelled in anger.

Rize sighed and ran a hand through her hair. "Guess we'll head back for now." She mumbled.

"Head back? He's on danger! Do you even care about-!" I started to rant, to force my anger onto something.

Rize snapped, glaring at me. "Care about him? I've known Levin three times longer than you, and you lecture me on worrying? That Crow is precious. But I know he can take care of himself." She said with a low, angry voice, and walked up to me.

"So don't tell me that I don't care." She said with a hiss of a voice.

I take a step back, feeling that I might have overstepped my boundaries. Everything she said was true, I shouldn't get mad and blame her for something so stupid.

She's right. Levin can take care of himself, for the most part. But I can't help but get this feeling that I'm missing something. Something Levin knows that I don't.

C'mon Lev, give me something to work with...

I look around, but to no avail, there's not a trace to follow them with. It looks like we really have to go back empty handed. Kurona isn't going to be happy... but she's in critical condition, so either way I don't think she's going to crack a smile.

"Sorry... let's go." I mumbled, heading back to the car.

Just then, I hear a yell from across the yard.

"Sassan!" I heard a call.

I turn quickly towards the familiar voices of Mutsuki and Shirazu. They're both running over, and I wait, no point in running. They both catch their breath as they finally get in front of me.

Rize senses the situation and climbs into the car before they got there, so now I'm alone to talk with them. I cross my arms and sigh.

"What?" I asked simply.

Mutsuki hesitated. "W-what? Where did you go?! Do you know where Urie is? Is he with you?" He asked quickly.

I bit my lip, remembering the file I had read. "No, he's not with me. But I'm going to start to search for him. You keep doing your jobs." I said.

Mutsuki looked at Shirazu for support, but he looked like he was still trying to find the right words to say. This was the first time I had seen them since...

Saiko' funeral.

I sigh and walk over to Mutsuki, and place my hand on top of her head. She flinched, and a slight blush went to her face as I did this. I give her a gentle smile, as gentle as I could be.

"I'll take care of this... I'll find Urie and bring him back safe, I promise." I said, then turned and opened the car door.

As I climb in, Shirazu finally speaks up.

"Sassan... back when we were investigating Nuts... you said you wouldn't leave the CCG once you regained your memories... why did you lie?" He asked, his voice sounded strangled, like he hated to call me a liar.

I stay still for a long time, then I look at him in the eyes. "There are things I still need to do on this side." I said, then closed the door, and drove off.

Without another word.

(Double part for Christmas! I'll upload another chapter tomorrow on Christmas! Happy holidays and have a happy New year! Nonetheless I hope you enjoyed and have a wonderful day!) - MnMs171