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F-R-I-E-N-D-S - Kim Namjoon

"I can't love you"
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The sun blares through even the curtains as I tried to cool down.
Why did I exercise in this heat?

I haven't changed out of my sports bra, my sweat deciding to secret all over.
I glug down my ice cold water, panting.

The familiar ring of the doorbell alarms me.
I huff as I painstakingly get up, finding a cardigan to drape over myself.

Oh god too sticky-

I jog down the stairs, running back my frizzy hair before opening the door.
I refrain from rolling my eyes at the person who was interrupting my burn up.

Namjoon.
My childhood friend.

One that I don't feel comfortable seeing anymore.

"Heya Y/N! Sorry to come unexpected but I thought we could hang out together today, the funfair is here at the park nearby."
I gave him a small smile before declining.

"I just had a work out session and I really don't feel like going out in this sun. Maybe another day. Sorry Namjoon."
I explain, hand positioned readily to shut the door.

"It's the last day... C'mon it'll be like when we were kids."
He said, showing his dimples.

He knows my weak spot.
The effect is like when someone gives you those wide puppy eyes.

Annoying but lethal.

"...okay give me ten minutes- wait inside, you can have a snack if you want!"
I say as I run upstairs.

I hear him call out an okay! before shutting the front door.
Leaving the mess of my room for later, I get changed into something more comfortable.

Wiping down the sweaty residue. Wiping away my disgust.
Spraying myself with perfume with the job of masking my smell.

I wanted to soak myself in cold water dammit.

I would wear clothes that look unattractive.
But Namjoon doesn't care about looks, he would seem quite admirable.

If you weren't the girl that he liked.

Yes he likes me.
He's confessed in a sweet way.

But I just don't feel the same!
He's like my brother, my best friend forever.

I can't see him in the way he sees me.

After a few minutes, I'm finished and trudge downstairs.
Gotta appreciate the few seconds I have left of being dead.

"I'm ready~"
Namjoon walks out of the living room with an excited smile.

He opens the door for me, which I smile at before frowning when I walk in front of him.
The awkwardness is real.

We walk towards the park, grateful that the sun is less intense than before.
I keep glancing at his fidgety nature, a habit he has when nervous.

"So um... Ready for all the cotton candy again?"
He asks, looking forward.

I giggle, thinking back to childhood days.
Of toothaches and giddy runs.

"Is your wallet ready? You dragged me out so I'm not paying." We laughed together.

"I mean, you agreed eventually. But I'll pay, you're broke anyways."
I punch his shoulder lightly, whining quietly.

"Don't remind meeee, I have to get up early for work tomorrow."
He pats my head with pity, making me pout.

We laugh again at my exaggerated expressions.
Why couldn't we be like this forever?

•••••••

3 Months Ago

"Y/N please don't be mad at me, I just needed to get this out..."

He bowed at a 90° angle and I was left stunned.
In his hands was a scrunched up bouquet of flowers and a crushed resolve.

"I-i can't..." I backed away from him.
"I can't love you."

He looked up, with a pained but knowing smile and incoming tears.
With a broken heart.

I broke my best friend's heart.

••••••

Why are we still friends?
Why are we acting as if nothing changed between us?

"Namjoon."

I stopped in my tracks as I addressed him.
He looked at me with worry at the abrupt change in my emotions.

I need to get this toxic feeling out.

"We are friends... Nothing but friends."
I gave him my sternest look.
"So don't act this way with me."

"Act what way?"
He feigned ignorance, feet itching to go to our destination.

"Don't act like this crack can be fixed. Don't act like I didn't trample all over your heart yet you're alright with it. Don't act strong. We are only friends."
He nodded, understanding.

I already know he understands.
I'm just adding salt to his deep wounds.

I broke the friendship now.

The End ♥️

I'm sorry for the late update, I've been really busy this past couple of days 😓
You can probably tell I was rushed, this part isn't the best and I apologise a lot for that <333

And yeah if you didn't already know, I really like Anne-Marie 😂 been her fan since Alarm~