Seductive Vibrations Book One To Four

Book Four Chapter One

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Opening my eyes I can't help but smile,  

rolling over,  my arms reach out to cuddle Jackson,

but there is just empty space. 

My mind races forward, memories of yesterday plaguing me, what have I done? My head hurts so much, but not as much as my heart, that is now in pieces.

 I can't see a way to fix it, a way to fix anything. Jackson's offer in my mind taking the stand, the one there telling me I have a decision to make. It is his way to give me both of them, yet I don't feel right agreeing, not at all. 

It would be like saying our marriage means nothing, yet it does. I hate this, I hate what they have done to me, they have destroyed me, just by giving me love, now the result three broken hearts, a fucked-up situation and destruction. 

How can this ever be fixed? How can I walk away from one knowing I'll be killing the other, I can't do that, yet I have to, I have to find a way to choose but I don't want to. 

Tears start to fall that's all I ever do is cry because nothing is going right when I find happiness there is something waiting to destroy it. 

I hate them both for causing this, yet I can't help but love them, the whole thing is fucked up and right now I can't see a way out. 

The door opens I don't want to look up, I don't want to see Jackson's pain, his hurt, his anger. I certainly can't cope with seeing his heart broken again. He is my Master, my husband yet right now, I don't know if any of that still stands. 

So how did I get to this point? Well, me and Jackson were doing great, sure we had our fair share of issues, but I love being his submissive, he then invited Marcus a friend to play, Marcus is truly amazing the problem, he fell in love with me, he couldn't help it and without even noticing I fell in love with him. Yesterday was the breaking point, the point where everything came together and crumbled at the same time. 

I pushed Marcus away when he kissed me, I couldn't hurt Jackson like that, but then when Jackson told me that Marcus was leaving and moving out I felt heart broken, I still do, even Jackson said he noticed I loved Marcus before I did.

Jackson left us to say goodbye, the thought of never seeing Marcus again hurt so much, we couldn't stop ourselves, sleeping together for the first time without Jackson's permission, I officially cheated. 

I thought Jackson would hate me, yet he doesn't, he blames himself for bringing Marcus into the situation.

So, what now? Well, I have the option of having them both, staying married to Jackson, still being his submissive, just with Marcus involved as much as I want him to be. 

To me that doesn't feel right, but I don't want Marcus to leave either. Jackson is still standing at the door, his breathing hitched as he waits for me to respond to him walking in. Reluctantly raising my head, I look at him, my heart shatters seeing his pain and hurt, I am evil, how can I do this to him?