dempeo/merder oneshots

not interested

I'm in bed with derek. I'm reading a book and he's watching TV. I turn to face him. I lean closer to him, kissing him on the neck. He turns to face me. I smile. He smiles back at me, kissing me softly. He looks back at the tv. "What ya watching?" I ask. "Documentary" he says, not looking away from the tv. "I'm gonna have a shower" I get up. I turn back around to him. "You wanna join me?" I ask.  "I- um need to finish watching this documentary" he says, not even looking at me. "Okay" I whisper. I grab my things before walking into the bathroom.

I take a quick shower, get changed and go downstairs to the kitchen, after checking on my kids. "Hey" izzie and lexie say. "Hi" I say. "What's up with you?" Lexie asks. I walk over to them, sitting on the stool opposite them. "Guess how long it's been since me and derek have had sex?" I whisper. "I dunno.. what time is it now?" Izzie jokes. "Eight weeks" I say. "What?" Lexie says. "Hes just not interested" I say. "I'm sure that's not true" lexie says. "He'd rather watch TV than join me in the shower.. I think its because of the baby.. I mean, my body has changed since I had Bailey but.. I didn't think he'd care" I whisper, tearing up slightly.

I chuckle, wiping my eyes. "Whatever.. its fine.. I guess" I try to brush it off. "No it isn't fine.. meredith, do you know how much he loves you? I am sure he wouldn't do that.. talk to him" lexie says. "I can't" I whisper. "Why? He's your husband.. you talk to derek about everything" izzie says. "Not about this" I say. "Mer.. talk to him" lexie says. "I- I'll try" I say. "Good" they both say.

I walk back into our bedroom. I go to the tv, turning it off. "Mer" he groans "I was watching that" he says. I walk over to him. "I want attention" I grin, putting my hands on his shoulders and climbing onto him so I'm straddling his lap. He puts his hands on my waist. "What's up?" He kisses my chest softly, traveling up to my lips, leaving little kisses up my neck. He kisses me on the lips. "Nothing, I just.. I just miss you" I say quietly. "I'm here.." he raises his brow. "I miss sex with you" I put my hands on his waist. "I miss you too" he says. I crawl further onto his lap, wrapping my arms tighter around him.

I kiss him passionately. I push my tongue into his mouth. I moan as our tongues fight. I start grinding against him. I feel him get hard under me. He groans against my lips. I run my hands down his body. He pulls away. "I'm gonna go and.. get a drink" he says. I sigh. "Derek" I say. "What?" he says. I look into his eyes. "Nothing.. nevermind"  I climb off of him. I stand up, rushing out of the room. Tears run down my cheeks.

"Mer!" He follows me out of the room. I go into the kitchen. Lexie and izzie are still in there. I go to the cupboard, grabbing a bottle of tequila. "No.. breastfeeding remember?" Lexie says. I glare at her. "Okay" she mumbles. I take a few large gulps of tequila. "What happened?" Izzie asks. "Why are you crying? Did you talk to him?" Lexie asks. I shake my head. I take another gulp. "Meredith" Derek walks into the kitchen. I turn around to the counter so he can't see my face. I wipe my tears.

I turn back around to him. "What?" I say. He looks at the tequila on the counter. "You're breastfeeding" he says. I walk over to him quickly. "You're a fucking asshole" I hit him. "What is your problem?" He says. "My problem is.. my husbands a fucking asshole" I keep hitting him. "Ow meredith" he moves back slightly. "Mm" I groan angrily, hitting him harder. "Okay.." he grabs my arms "What the hell is your problem?" He says. I try to pull away from him. He turns us around, pushing me up against the wall, careful not to hurt me. He holds my hands either side of me. "Meredith" he says.

Tears run down my face. He let's go of my arms. "Please tell me what's wrong?" He whispers, stroking my cheek gently with his thumb. "I thought you loved me" I say tearfully. "What? I do love you" he says. "I didn't think you'd care about what I-" I stop, crying, tears rolling down my cheeks. "Mer" he whispers, putting his hands on my waist. "I had a baby.. my body changed but I didn't-" I stop. He looks at me confused. His eyes go wide. "What? No no no baby I-" he puts his hands on my cheeks "No.. you're- you are so so perfect.. that is not why I-" he says. "I was cleared to have sex weeks ago and you're not even interested.. I get it.. if you don't.. find me attractive or whatever anymore but I just- it hurts" I whisper.