Demi Lovato Imagines (gxg) - COMPLETED

"How can i sleep when i'm this anxious?"

Here you were, another night where you knew you weren't gonna sleep. You sat up on the bed in the darkness, the clock on your nightstand reading two am, you ran your hands over your face and looked at Demi who was sleeping peacefully next to you. You weren't quite sure what to do, you knew you wouldn't be able to sleep but you also didn't want to leave Demi. Even though she was sleeping, her presence alone was bringing you some comfort. She was next to you and you knew if your mind started racing you could wake her up, but you couldn't bring yourself to do so. So though your mind was pulling you in two different directions, you decided to leave the bedroom to go downstairs to watch some tv, hoping it would at least take your mind off your racing thoughts even just a little.

You looked back at Demi next to you, running your fingers through her soft hair and kissing her forehead softly, getting off the bed quietly and gently, careful not to wake her. You walked downstairs into the kitchen to grab some water before going into the living room and turning on some reruns of friends. As you sat down there, all the lights off except the tv, you couldn't help but think about all the things that were making you anxious. The past few days had really taken a toll on your mental health and Demi insisted that you remove all social media apps from your phone in hopes that it would help but nothing was really helping except when you were with Demi. But she had a life of her own too, an extremely important job, lots of friends that wanted to hang out with her. The last thing you wanted to do was drag her down. It seemed like the more you thought about being anxious the more anxious you became. You knew that you should just focus on the tv or go back upstairs with Demi and at least try to sleep, but you also knew there was no chance of that happening. You looked over at the clock on the wall that read it was now 4am. You sighed and tugged at your hair a little, turning your attention back to friends.

You heard soft footsteps on the stairs, Demi's beautiful face greeting you a few seconds later. You could see how tired she was but she couldn't have cared less about that at that moment. "Demi? Why are you up?" "I woke up and you weren't next to me, I got scared. What about you?" "No reason" "oh come on Princess, tell me. You can tell me anything, you know this." She sat down next to you, putting her hand on your leg and rubbing it in soft, slow, soothing circles. "I just... it's stupid. I just can't sleep. I'm so anxious Demi, and so exhausted but I just can't sleep. My anxiety won't let me, my mind won't stop racing and I just hate nights like this. How can I sleep when I'm this anxious?" She sighed softly, her hand removing itself from your leg and going up to your hair. She ran her fingers through it softly, twirling some strands around her fingers. "Alright babe. Well if you won't sleep then I won't either." "What? No you need sleep Demi." "Me? Y/N you're the one who hasn't slept in almost 24 hours, I got like 3 hours and I'm okay with that. Besides, you're so much more important than sleep." She laid back against the couch and pulled you into her arms, one hand around your back and on your side, the other on your stomach. "So what exactly is making my beautiful baby girl feel so anxious, hm?" You shook your head and smiled a little, the nickname making your hands shake a little. "A bunch of stuff I guess. I used to love the holiday season but now that I'm an adult, it makes me feel so stressed out. I mean Christmas is in like a week and I haven't gotten you anything! And then there's work, since I lost my job I feel.. weird. Like I'm not sure how to fill all this free time and I don't wanna make you pay for everything, I'm gonna need a new job sooner or later. And sleep, oh god, that's my worst enemy right now. I feel like my body hates me. Sleep is so damn hard and I don't know why. It's like my body wants me to see if I can stay up for 5 days straight and still function like a human. I don't know, I just feel so anxious about everything. And then of course I think about being anxious and that makes me feel even more anxious."

Demi kept her eyes on you, her hands rubbing soothing shapes on your soft skin. She nodded her head and brought one of your hands up to her lips, kissing it softly. "I'm sorry you're so anxious. Princess I don't have all the answers and I know that you don't need them, sometimes you just get anxious for no reason and other times you do have a reason and I wish more than anything that I could take all this away from you. It makes me so sad knowing that you're feeling like this, I wish I could make it all better. But since I can't make it all go away or take it all away from you, I can do what I love doing the most. Holding you close in my arms, giving you massages because you get so tense sometimes, I can turn on your favorite show and just cuddle you as we watch it together. I can hug you while I rub your back and try my hardest to make myself believe I am taking all these thoughts away from you, I can tell you how important you are and how much I love you, how you're my world, the reason for my existence. I can kiss you the way you like me to, I can make you your favorite comfort food, but more than anything I can listen to you, and I know how much you need that sometimes." You looked into her eyes, the way they sparkled as she spoke. Every word making your heart flutter and your palms shake just a little. You smiled softly at her, her hands coming up to caress your cheeks and tuck some loose strands of messy hair behind your ear. "I know sometimes you don't feel like it, but you're absolutely perfect to me. And even though your brain may tell you differently at times, you're the most important thing in my life. Above any concert or interview or studio session. Nothing in my life will ever be more important than you." You couldn't help but kiss her at that moment, her lips like magnets, pulling your lips to hers. It was something so comforting to you. Her lips had this way of hypnotizing you, mesmerizing you, making you feel things you had never felt before, loved above all else.

You pulled away, her hands were still holding your face so softly, she was showing you at that moment that she wanted you close to her and that she was there, she wasn't going to leave you anytime soon. You giggled as she rested her forehead on yours, your nose rubbing against hers so so softly. You gave her a little pout, one she recognized by now, she knew exactly what you wanted when you did that. Her lips went all over your face, kissing everywhere including your lips before they softly went to your jawline down to your neck. You giggled softly as you felt one of her hands travel down to your tank top and push it down your arm a little, allowing her to kiss across your collarbones and shoulders. And just like that your mind was focused on anything but your once negative and nervous thoughts, your mind now full of thoughts about your incredibly gorgeous girlfriend, the woman in front of you who was willing to do absolutely anything for you because she just loved you that much. She felt like she was born to love you and as her lips kept traveling from your neck to your shoulder, you knew you were born for the same thing.

Neither of you noticed the sun coming up, you weren't focused on anything but each other. You ended up falling asleep around 8am, Demi held you in her arms as she rubbed your back with her soft hands, your head in her lap as you two sat on the couch in the same position you'd been in for hours. She watched you as your eyelashes fluttered against your cheek, your hands wrapped around her other hand, even in your sleep you didn't want to let go. She knew you never really needed all the answers to your fears or questions, you just needed her, and she'd always do everything in her power to make sure you had her right there when you needed her, because for her she only needed the same thing- you.