Going back to the main palace I decided to stop by at the valide's grave too...
- Well... Here am I... AGAIN... I know you're not happy, but I hope you'll listen me over anyway - I sighed deeply.
I feel weird whenever I talk like this... Because I probably look like an idiot, but I don't really care anymore. I don't have much time left anyway.
- Being the leader of the harem is indeed hard... And now I can imagine what you have been going through with your sons too... And I'm afraid that... That if I'm gone one of them will end up dead. But what can I do? My sickness has no cure and I feel weaker and weaker day by day... And now that I'm thinking back... I feel awkwardly bad for making your life difficult... I know how hard your life was... Because mine is also harder since I've been in your place... And I feel worried... Worried that this is the end... My family... German... And everyone... They still need me and Allah wants me to leave them... But I love them and I'm scared they might end up dead earlier than they should...
At this moment I swear I felt like she's right in front of me.
- I always liked you and always looked up to you... And since you died I kept trying to work as you did... Keep the harem together and protect German and my children as much as I can...
I sighed deeply then after a short pray I headed off, back to the palace.
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As I arrived back and I was at my room German was already there...
- Angie!
- German?
- Where have you been for so long?
- I went to see Mahidevran.
- For this long?!
- Calm down - I smiled as I went to hug him - I visited Hatice, Ibrahim and the valide sultana's grave too...
- Oh!
- Yeah... I just wanted to uh... "Talk to them" for a bit...
- I see... - he smiled sightly then he hugged me tightly to him - I'm just too worried...
- Yes, you are - I smiled back - But I understand that... I'd worry too... I do worry...
- Why so?
- I just am...
- But why? Are you worried about us?
- Yes... - I nodded - Worried about you... Selim... Bayezid... Violetta... Mustafa... Ludmilla... Everyone... That what you're going to do when I'll no longer be here...
- We'll be fine... Don't be worried... - he smiled - Mostly because you're not going to leave us anytime soon...
- That would be nice... But I don't really know...
- Angie...
- German, I can feel that I'm getting weaker and weaker and I can't do anything about it! - I cried out - I wish I could, but I can't!
- Okay, okay... - he sighed as he hugged me again - I just don't want you to leave us... Please... Promise me that you'll fight!
- I will fight till the moment when I can't stand up... - I smiled up at him - I'll fight for you... And for my children...
He just smiled and kissed my head softly while he was still hugging me lovingly to him.
I feel so happy in his arms... And I can totally forget about everything bad... Even for a little while...
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Never ending love {A Germangie story}
FanfictionWhat will happen if Angie's perfect life suddenly turns upside down and ends up as a harem lady in the sultan's palace? She have lost everything and she doesn't want to live any more... Atleast that's why she thought until she finally saw the sultan...