I don't knowhat tf is going on but I feel like I'm about to have a fuckng breakdown
Over a puddinibng cup.
This is the 2nd unopened thing I've had just vanish into thin air. And there's no chance of anyone stealing it from me this time because I only left my room once and when I cane back ir was still there.
I'm hungry because Dinner is where I get most of my food.
I already lost my stashed can of mac and meat sauce
I'm prety sure the monthly blood letting is around the corner so that could be why my emotions are high.
And now I can't find this pudding cup.
I literally dug througout my room trying fo find it, even tried retracing my steps to the time I did leave my room and nothing.
I left it on my table, with the spoon my sister left, and both the cup and the sppon are gone.
And I feel like I want to yell and cry right now and now I feel patehtic because I'm feeeling this way over a freaking pudding cup.
I feel like yelling right now, crying, I feel this anxious kind of vibrations in my bpody, Iwant to hit something, I just want to swallow something down because of the whole thing triggering it. Of course I'm gonna stop drinking the coffee on my table because that sure as hell ain't helping.
I wish I could just KNOW where the pudding up is. I even looked under everything there is too look under.I looked above things, behind things, even in front of things to make sure it wasn't a "it's right there in plain site and you're too focused on it being hidden" crap. And I genuinly can't remember putting it anywhere other than back on my table when I looked at ti.
So UI'm gonna try and calm down a biut now, meditate or nap if I can, and try to clean up a little when the sun is actually up.
I just wanted some pudding. I just wanted a sweeyt. That's all I anted. And now this?
