WINDBREAKER (WEBTOON) x reader imagines❤️

Joker x reader- savior

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Seriously though only Windbreaker, Yakuza, SEVENTEEN, and wattpad can get me out of suicidal thoughts so guys if ever you feel like you need some help about something or if you guus are thinking about doing something that might hurt yourself then let's make this paragraph's comment section a safe haven for you guys. You can comment anything you feel and the other readers might have some advices or I have depending on the situation. Let's be comfortable here and help each other out because everyone of us is special and I love you guys so much. Your life matters so much to us!

WARNING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND SUICIDE RELATED ACTIONS!

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I closed my eyes. The wind gushing to my face was so strong that my skin was starting to get pale. I don't know how long I have been up here but I surely didn't want to get down. Tears started falling out of my eyes as it flowed endlessly down my cheecks as if falls down to the water below. I wiped the uncomfortable tears and finally opened my eyes again. I was still on the bridge. Standing on the safe side as I leaned on the railings thinking if I should do it or not. I couldn't handle things anymore. The pressure of being the daughter of one of the most prestigious families in korea and having to have and follow a lot of high standards. The feeling of everyone being so fake and judges me because I have trust issues. My mom paying random kids my age to become my friends and become a real life spy to my life. The feeling of doing everything you can to pass all the things people expect you to be. To keep thinking of the life I used to live when I was young and how much I wanted to go back and experience it all again like there was no tomorrow. All the responsibilities I possess because of having siblings and people around me are forcing me to grow up faster. My dad having an affair with a random worker at his company. My younger brother being spoiled and buying all things even though he hasn't done anything good in the house. I made all the maids all quit because of my mom always destroying things because of my dad and she kept abusing them. Being the oldest and every mistake your sibling does becomes my problem to solve and my lecture to listen to and my punishment to have. I couldn't go out with minu and the others because my mom is making me focus on taking over the whole family business instead of doing things I needed to do in high school. Dad gave my bike to one of his workers because he said it was a pain in his eyes at home. I can't sleep because everything is a mess and each day I woke up I get tired and tired and no one notices because I barely get out of the house. Shelly, june, anyone tried contacting me but I didn't want them to worry about my life because it's my responsibility to handle everything by myself. My mental state is getting worse and I get sadder and sadder each day. Even doing the things I love most is getting boring and nothing seems fun anymore. Nothing seems useful anymore. I feel like I'm not useful anymore and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of feeling like I'm such a burden to others. I want my friends to have the best life they could get and I'm only getting in their way. Maybe I think I was born here by mistake. What if my parents weren't planning it but the condom broke? Huh fuck I'm fucking tired of this shit and I want this to end but whatever I do nothing will ever make it normal again. So I need to do something I really needed to do. Which is what I'm doing now.

My eyes showed a very tired glare as the moon was the only bright thing I could see and the water bellow the 50 meter bridge was reflecting it's light.

This is it.

I climbed on top of the railing before going to the other side. I started panting as the only thing keeping me from falling was my strong grip on the railing. I stared at the drop and smiled. This will surely kill me. I breathed and was about to jump but I was hesitating a lot. What if shelly and the others come look for me and find out I died? There's so much to do but so much pulling me back as well. Fuck it. I'm jumping off and this is final.