Jion sat with y/n atop the monkey bars staring at her as she stared at the sun set with squinted eyes , his body feeling colder inside than usual . He looked away from her feeling hazy with how fast he had turned his head . Y/n who was sitting next to him was stuck in a state of high just as he was but they'd taken 2 different drugs , y/n just an extra strength thc gummy while jion was off the more hardcore stuff . She ran her fingers softly over the fentanyl patch which was stuck onto his neck causing him to look over at her but he didn't say anything . A million thoughts seemed to run through his mind but right now the only one he had was how pretty he thought she was .
He & y/n would usually have arguments about her beauty or just anything rlly but especially that . She genuinely didn't believe she was beautiful and it kind of angered jion because he hated her to think of herself as less than what she was . Jion had a crazy big crush on y/n but he knew she didn't return his feelings in that manner . She'd thought of him as her best friend and nothing more than that , while he'd been in love with her since they'd met each other in 5th grade .
Jion was never really cheery or happy about anything , if you'd ask the only emotions he could genuinely feel that actually felt real were pain and sadness . But he also knew that this little pinch he felt in his chest and stomach everytime he was around her meant that he was in love with her . She had something about her that just attracted him to her and he hated it sometimes because as i've stated before he knew she didn't like him in that way .
They were best friends but jion wished they were more , letting you guys in on a secret , she has a boyfriend as well .. so now here he was just staring at her , admiring her without saying a single word . "we've been sitting here for about 20 minutes now and ever since we've sat down you've been staring .. do you have something to tell me? is there something on my face?" she asked and then turned her attention to jion who immediately turned to face the sunset to avoid her eyes . "i wasn't staring" he simply said still facing forward .
y/n looked to his ears which had reddened showing the world that her best friend was flustered . "cute" she quietly spoke but he still heard her . "okay whatever you say mr" and with that she turned her attention back to the sky .
jion held back the smile that was so eager to show since she'd called him cute but he was failing . she turned to look at him again see his struggling . she let out a small laugh making jion turn his attention to her . "what?" "you're just so cute"she said & this time his whole face turned red . "not as cute as you" he said .
"i'm not cute but you are" she spoke turning her attention towards the sky again . "why do you- i don't even have the energy right now , you'll blow my high" he huffed letting his eyes scan over the almost empty park . he knew there was no point in telling her otherwise cause she'd just keep disagreeing .
jion felt a cold hand touch his making him look down to see her smaller brown hand on top of his . he watched as they linked their fingers around each other's , his eyes almost popping from his head . she gave his hand a gentle squeeze and he slowly looked up at her as she continued to stare at the sunset .
"i'm sorry i made you upset" she spoke knowing that he'd gotten mad at her for saying she wasn't cute . "i won't say it again" she said still without looking at him . Jion decided to test the waters . "you are really beautiful y/n , i hope one day you'll believe me" "thank you" was all she said but it made him so happy that he felt like running a mile . this was the first time she hadn't said something along the lines of "not as pretty as you" or just straight up no .
jion held her hand tightly in his knowing the second they'd let go she'd go running back to her boyfriend and leaving him alone in his own feelings , maybe it was the drugs but he felt his heart hurt worse than usual in this moment but chose to ignore it , placing both of their combined hands in his lap . he let his smile show now as he watched the sky again . y/n looked over to him smiling to herself at his cuteness . she knew jion liked her & she liked him as well but she also believes they wouldn't be a good match in a relationship .. she did find it interesting that he could just take her insecurities away the way he did but she wasn't complaining . she didn't feel pretty & when she looked at herself she could never see it . but because he said she was she believed it .
The two of them stared at each other , her eyes low and red while his pupils were js very constricted . This was another reason she felt like they wouldn't work out in that way because jion did various amounts of hardcore drugs , i mean she'd had her fair share of weed & edibles but nothing past that . It scared her everytime he'd pop a pill or , do a line , or like now .. sticking a patch to his body . The thought of losing her best friend just was something she'd never cope with which is why she would nag him about it but eventually she gave up seeing no change .
Her phone had rang and she let go of jions hand picking it up to see her boyfriend calling . She sighed and looked back and jion who pretended not to know what she was about to say next . "I've gotta go , get home safe please and text me later when you do" she said before climbing down and running off . Jion just watched her leave his mind too hazy to think but his heart did it all for him . His eyes filled with tears and he just turned back towards the sun , fully giving his high a feel as his body felt like it was floating . This was why he did drugs , it made him feel something way beyond what he usually felt , it felt good .. it was like a breath of fresh air , it felt like he wouldn't cry over her anymore .
But who is he kidding , this feeling was always only temporary .. unlike his depression & obsession with her .
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idk if this makes any freaking sense or if it's good or not it's actually been in the drafts for like 2 weeks and i haven't gone back over and reread it or anything 🫤 .
