💫She's Different💫

Bella During The Week

The Next Day*
Therapy is fun, but it's also not fun. It's fun when you get to draw and play. But it's not fun when you have to have your mommy there or talk about bad things.
"Let's work on talking more confidently."
"What that means?"
"It means talking without being ashamed. Now I have a little game that'll help, I'm going to ask you some questions and if you answer them confidently you'll get a point. If you don't you either lose a point or don't get one at all. Seems fun?"
"Yeah! Can I ask you questions too?"
"Sure."
"Now let's start, what is your favorite color?"
"Purple."
"Good job, now you ask me a question."
"What is your favorite color?"
"Yellow." I clapped and ate my chips.
"How was your week this week?"
"It was good and then bad." She stopped smiling and put the marker down.
"How so?"
"Me and my mommy went to this place called Long Island and it was super fun! But then Yesterday mommy treat me a way."
"What kind of way? Was it bad, or just different from how she is."
"Different. Like something was wrong with me. I said I was okay."
"Maybe she was worried about you. She didn't mean to treat you a way. What did you for her to worry?"
"I wasn't eating my food. But that's because of the broccoli!"
"Do you not like broccoli?"
"I love broccoli! But the broccoli was telling me not eat it."
"Really?"
"Yeah. And mommy got worried."
"Bella, what you heard was imaginary."
"But it spoke." She took a deep breath and smiled.
"Sometimes people make imaginary friends to help them feel better about what's going on in their lives. But Bella, they're not real." I nodded and put my head down.
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At the gym (Wednesday)
Mommy put me in this thing called a private. It means that it's just me and Coach Willow together practicing. I like private's because she's super nice!
"Can I see a cartwheel?" I did one perfectly and smiled.
"That was beautiful! Can you do a backflip?"
"Well, not really. I've been trying super hard but I keep on falling."
"Let's go on the trampoline. Bella, I think it's better if you practice with me present. You could've hurt yourself. Understand?"
"Yes Coach Willow!" I went over to the trampoline and let her put the spotting belt on me. She helped me do the backflip and it made me really happy. Because I was doing the things that the big girls could do.
"You were amazing today Bella. Next week we'll keep practicing and one day we'll try on the mat."
"Coach Willow?"
"Yes?"
"Do you think I'll be as good as the big girls?"
"I think you will. You're a fast learner and you're ahead of the other kids."
"Yay! I wanna be just like Laine, because she looks like me."
"Aww, you'll be just like her if you listen to me and work hard. Alright pumpkin?" I nodded and gave her a hug.
"Thank you." I went outside to see Lucy waiting for me and she helped me change into regular clothing.
"How was gym?"
"It was fun."
"I saw you practicing your backflip. You looked so adorable."
"Thank you! Is mommy coming to tuck me in tonight?"
"She can't tonight. But you can call her."
"But she said she'll be be home for bedtime today. She promised." Mommy lied. Why would she do that?
"Sometimes people can't always keep them, I'm sorry honey." Lucy said as we went to the basketball court.
"Lucy! Bella!" Noah gave me a kiss and hug first and then gave Lucy a hug.
"I had so much fun today!"
"That's great! Tell me all about it!"
"Well today in school I got a snack because of my good behavior then we played telephone and my friend and I traded snacks today!" Lucy smiled and ruffled Noah's hair.
"What about you Bella?"
"It was fine." Would've been better if mommy didn't lie to me.
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The Next Morning
"Wake up love muffin." She tried to give me a kiss and I turned away.
"Don't kiss me!" I tried to go to the bathroom but she grabbed my arm.
"Why are you being like this?"
"I don't like you, don't touch me."
"Bella-"
"LalalA."
"Bell"
"Lala."
"Bella cut it out."
"Bella cut it out."
"Alright I'm not doing this today, I'm giving you 7 minutes to change into those clothes. If I come back and you don't have those clothes on you're not gonna like what'll happen." She left the room and went over to Noah's room.
"I don't even wanna wear this. It's harsh clothing!" I put the ugly pink jeans on and white shirt. Then I put on the silver jacket.
"I don't like harsh clothing!" I sat down on my beanbag and started to cry. I don't wanna wear this! I don't like the clothes mommy picked, I don't even like her right now.
"Bella, let's go do hair."
"I don't want to!"
"5, 4-" I got up and I went into the bathroom. Mommy put spray in my hair and started to comb it up into a pony. I started to cry again and she stopped with the scrunchy in her hand and turned me around.
"Bella,"
"I don't wanna talk to you."
"Why?" I put my hands to my face and cried lots and lots. Mommy finished doing my hair and tried to move my hands from my face.
"Stop."
"Okay. We're going to talk about this later."
"Mommy!"
"Yes Noah?"
"Can I have a bar for breakfast?"
"Sure. Go take one baby boy."
"Let's go eat breakfast."
"I don't want to!"
"You have to, come on."
"DONT TOUCH ME!! Don't!" I left the bathroom and sat on my beanbag. I just wanted to be alone and not even go to school.
"Bella we have to go. I don't have time for this today." Mommy got me a jacket and put it on me.
"Noah, jacket please." He put it on quietly and zipped it up.
"Bella have this bar." I held it as she carried me downstairs and I got into the car still holding it.
"Bella you have to eat. Or you'll be really hungry." I gave the bar to Noah and he shook his head. A couple of minutes later we were at school and mommy dropped me off to my class.
Before she left she gave me a hug and kiss and said,
"I hope that when I pick you up later you'll feel well enough to tell me why we had to be like this, this morning. Eat your bar and behave. Understand?"
"Yes Mommy."