13th Doctor x reader (3rd book)

Bite

A/n: this is a sad chapter and is unspokenly about assault etc..

You weren't really sure what to do except for endure it. Just wait for her to be over you supposed. You just stood completely still, maybe by choice or maybe not, feeling her lips up against yours. They weren't strong or demanding though. It was almost...soft, gentle.

It was slightly hard not to kiss back. It just felt awkward standing and doing nothing. Especially when this kiss seemed genuine. If anything it was almost...comforting you. Letting you know you were loved.

Though you were pretty sure this was anything but love. She was treating you like an object. Her pet as she liked to call it. She was just using you. And you hated it.

You scrunched your face up and tried to pull away from her, though you knew it was useless. You didn't want her anywhere near you. You were starting to get restless. So you started to pull away more violently, making noises of discomfort.

"Leave her alone Eva" the doctor shouted, seeing your discomfort.

You winced in disgust when she started to bite your lower lip, and you felt your heart rate start to spike. You wanted to get away. You wanted to do anything. But it was like you were completely under her control. There was no way you could get away. You couldn't do anything but struggle.

"Shh" she finally pulled away from your lips, though her face was still brushing against yours "calm down my pet"

"I'm not your pet" you whispered out, trying not to sob.

You just wished you were back in the TARDIS safe and sound. In your bed. Maybe with Missy. In her room perhaps. Talking, cuddling.

You felt one of her hands reach up to cup your cheek while you tried to do anything to get away from this crazy vampire. You weren't hers. You were no ones.

You whimpered and tried to get away from her. She pulled away looking at you with those grey eyes, her hand slowly caressing your cheek. She was trying so hard to draw you in. To seem kind and loving and caring. But you knew better. She wanted nothing but to use you.

She made eye contact with you and you knew you were shaking by now. Not intentionally. The doctor was keeping her eyes on Eva while secretively doing something with the chains too.

"Are you afraid I'll be like him?" She whispered, making your throat knot up as you tried to choke back sobs.

She saw everything. Every memory you had tried to lock away and never look back at. Every time you drank a ton to try and forget. She saw all of it. Maybe she saw some memories you had drank away and couldn't even remember yourself now.

She sighed a little at that before kissing your cheek lightly "why don't you tell anyone?" She asked in such a deceiving gentle tone.

"I don't look back.." you got out, and you could audible hear the strain in your voice.

"Never?" She asked, looking at you with raised brows.

"I can't..." you felt like you could barely breathe at this point, and the lump in your throat was cutting off your oxygen.

"I know" she said gently before stroking your hair gently, making you flinch away a little "doesn't it weigh on your chest though?" She asked "not telling anyone. Keeping it all a secret even now. Even with your closest friends. Even the other one in this room"

You bit your lip at that before feeling your lips tug down into a frown. You couldn't speak. You couldn't say it out loud yourself let alone tell someone. Even if it was the doctor.

"I can't.." you got out "I don't look back..I just can't.."

Eva nodded her head at that, and you couldn't help but give into her touch. She was being so gentle. And she wasn't touching you too much. Not like a hug or anything. It was like she knew that would scare you. Though of course she knew. She had seen your memories. You still couldn't do a hug properly.

But you couldn't help but feel better when talking about it. Just telling someone about what happened. And Eva seemed to understand. In a way it was easier to say to someone you didn't know. And to someone who already knew everything at the same time. You weren't really explaining to anyone that way. You were just getting whatever you wanted off your chest.

"I've never had to look..." you told her "it's like my whole body..even my mind just..doesn't think about it. Even those voices in my head..."

"I heard them.." Eva whispered before smirking a little "how do you cope? I was right about your defiant spirit" she said quietly.

"They tease me about everything" you told her, and you could feel the doctors eyes burning holes into you "even my family..." you bit your wobbling lip at that before shaking your head "but not..that. It's like everything about it is just...forgotten. Ignored.." you shrugged a little.

She sighed a little at that before giving you that look of pity again "but it didn't just happen once did it?"

In a way you were glad you couldn't cry at this point. You didn't want to be a mess right now. And you knew you would have been. You just turned your head away from both of them and stayed silent, forcing yourself not to look back at what happened. You knew if you did you would break down. You just had to keep the memories out of your head.

You felt Eva start to plant small kisses on your neck, making you close your eyes. You didn't know how to feel. You didn't like how she was all touchy with you. But she was in a weird way helping you to calm down.

That was until you felt a piercing pain in your neck like two small knives had just been stuck into your neck, igniting a scream from the back of your throat.