Fluffy Phan One-Shots

Holiday

*Phil's point of view*

I was miserable.
I was laying in bead cuddling with Dan.
This will be the last time in months.
Dan is going on a YouTube holiday.
I'll be alone for six months.
But so will he.

Dan's hands were running through my hair. The side of my face was on his chest and an arm around his stomach. Light tears were falling from my face. We weren't talking, just enjoying each other's presence.

Of course we've both been told, "Be happy it's only half a year." But those people don't understand.

Those people have a bunch of friends. Dan and I only have each other.

Those people don't love someone as much and we love each other.

Those people don't know what it feels like when the air that keeps you alive, is no longer in your lungs.

"I love you." Dan's voice cracked. He kissed me on the forehead.
"I love you too." I whispered choking back tears. Dan started to trace shapes in my skin.
"You know you can call me right?"
"Of course." I sniffled.
"No I mean anytime. I could care less. If I'm in a meeting or out to dinner I'll just excuse myself. I don't care if it's five in the morning or midnight. If your lonely call me."
"I will. Just... don't find anyone up there." It pained me to say it... but I needed to. Dan's attractive. If he found someone, I don't think I'd make it.
"I could never. I wouldn't be able to function." I smiled.

I looked at the clock and wanted to cry harder. Ten more minutes.
I'll still breath.
But not like I am right now.
My breathing right now is me living.
My breathing when Dan is gone, is just going to keep me alive.
Nine more minutes.
"Can't I go with you?" I said getting up and siting on Dan's lap. Tears were coming a little faster.
"I wish you could. More than anything. I don't know why they won't let you. If anything I'll work harder with you there." His tears were now visible too. I laughed a little.
"We both know you  wouldn't."
"You're right."
Eight more minutes.
"What am I gonna do without my bear?" I asked quietly.
"What am I gonna do without my sun?" He asked back.
Seven more minutes.
I got up and grabbed my lion.
"I know it's kind of stupid... but I want you to take Lion with you." I said blushing and handing it to him as I sat back down.
"Thanks." He smiled but I could see pain mixed with love in his eyes. "I don't think it's stupid at all."
Six more minutes.
"I don't want you to go." I cried, tears were falling fast.
"I don't want you to go either." Dan's were too.
Five more minutes.
I looked Dan in the eyes and he looked back at mine.
Four more minutes.
Dan put his hand on my cheek and kissed me. The kiss was so gentle and sweet.
But sad, it meant goodbye.
Three more minutes.
"I have to leave." Dan whispered putting his forehead against mine.
"I know." I said. I kissed him more.
Two more minutes.
And more.
One more minute.
And a little more. We put our foreheads together.
"I love you." Dan whispered.
"I love you too." I whispered back.
Zero more minutes.
I heard the horn honk outside. Dan's ride was here. At this point we were both bawling.

"I'll be back I promise. I love you." Dan said walking down the steps, tears rolling down his face.
"I hope so, I love you too." I said running down and giving him a hug, tears rolling down mine too. Dan gave me one more painfully loving glance and opened the door.

Now, my breathing is just keeping me alive.

I am miserable.
I was no longer laying in bed and cuddling with Dan.
This will be the first time for months.
Dan is away on a YouTube holiday.
I'll be alone for six months.
But so will he.