A C T O R S || OS 02

94. Jared Leto | Secretly Jared Leto's *

By : i-think-he-is-adorable-too

He grabbed you hand while on a coworker's party and that's when you got nervous, it's not like you were actually cheating right? It's been almost year since you last saw him and months since you last spoke to him online.

That one night where you decided to leap and do something crazy was going to be your doom.

You had met Jared Leto on a meet and greet, he had been onto you and invited you over to his hotel room. You knew it was completely wrong, you could totally imagine the outrage on your mother's face if she ever found out you accepted, but you didn't want to ever look back and wonder what if...

And that stupid belief you have of living life at its fullest was exactly what got you into this dilemma. After that unbelievable night you spent with Jared, against all odds, he kept in contact and he even visited you a couple of times afterwards. You got to know each other, you became something which you couldn't put a name on. You saw movies together, you talked about anything and everything, you kissed, and even spent lots of nights together. He was great, he was sweet with you, cool, really open, fun, quite intense and obviously very, very sexy and handsome. But you were never really clear about what you were to each other... until he asked you to marry him, and even after that you still didn't know how serious your relationship is...

Flashback

You were wearing only one if his t-shirts sitting on the couch while watching a movie with Jared in his hotel room. He was resting his head on your lap while you played with his hair, when you suddenly felt his intense gaze on you. You had looked back at him and raised an eyebrow. That's when he dropped the bomb... "what if we got married?"

Back to present

You obviously had thought he was kidding but apparently not. He had told you, it wouldn't change anything, it would remain a secret from everyone else, just something between you to. And again you had decided you'd rather not wonder later about the what if... so you had gotten married. And everything had remained a secret except for that one moment when rumors were flying around about him getting married because he forgot to take off his ring in public.

You had kept in contact, he visited you twice after your little but memorable secret wedding (and short but great honeymoon). But then you guess it all just cooled and you drifted apart or he just forgot about you. And now here you were secretly married, with no real marriage or husband present.

A new guy named John started working in your office about a month ago, he was pretty cool and although you weren't attracted to him, he seemed to really like you. You couldn't help but wonder if you dated someone would that be cheating on your husband?

You knew Jared probably had been with other women while he and you were whatever it is that you had been, and even after the wedding. But when John grabbed your hand you felt uncomfortable and even a little guilty, which got you mad with yourself and with Jared too.

You have flirted with John, and you liked him, he was a really good friend and you had similar taste in music and things, but still you couldn't help but wonder if you were betraying Jared by spending time with him and playing along.

While on a coworker's party, you were talking with your friends when John grabbed your hand and smiled at you. Your best friend Mary saw and winked at you, she was evidently rooting for you both. Obviously she didn't know about Jared, none did. You carried your marriage ring on a chain around your neck, and at times like this it felt like it was weighting you down.

Later that night when you were saying goodbye John hugged you and kissed your cheek while you blushed, he was really sweet. What you didn't notice was Mary and Katie, another one of your coworkers snapping a picture of the moment, which later that night you found out because you were tagged on it as it ended up being posted on an instagram story. That's where the real mess started.