The next 6 days happened . I don't know how but they did. I had said I wasn't going back to work or the restaurant for one week . I needed to spend time with my sissy baby girl , and Tammie. We have spent every moment together .we have gone to the movies and the mall , liberty land and the water park just opened up . We spent the whole day there yesterday! It was so much fun .. Tammie and I have had long nights of eating junk food and talking till my jaw hurt. She's shocked to say the least about my tat !! And the whole Matt thang.. she says wow u have lived !! U look so good girl .aww thanks we are looking at the pictures of me her and sissy we have taken over the past week . The three amigos we call it . We haven't been apart the three of us for 6 full days we even slept in the same bed lol just Iike old times .. sissy in the middle of my queen size bed me and Tammie on either side of her . Sissy has been happiest child for a week now. And I hate it so much more then I could ever say . But I have to send her home today. I go back to work tomorrow. Tammie says she will take sissy home for me . I thank her and Tammie is staying with her sister this week. She knows I need sleep. I have to start work and intern ..it's Friday night about 4:49 pm .. and I need a shower and bed clothes .I'm already exhausted this week has been exhausting ..go go go ...but I needed it too. I walk in my room and pick out something to wear to bed. I'm standing in my closet thinking way harder then I want to. Everything is ready I take a towel out the cabinet and place it on the sink . I think I need my razor .. I walk to my room and I hear Rick talking to someone . I walk around the counter and look up straight in to Jays eyes ..... he looks at me like he's seen a ghost . We stare for a few seconds. . It like no air ..I can't breath. He's actually 3 ft from me . He's right here. He looks away first . Well he looked down at the floor . He says hi. As he peers up at me sorta side ways. Like he couldn't bare to look at me .. I say hi .. sorta my voice is gone . Like no air no voice just can't .. he says how are you Melanie ? I say ok .. I'm so not ok ? He smiles sorta just this kinda lift to his lip . I say u? He says u know . He looks in my eye so deep I can't. I can't. I'm gonna burst into tears. He says welcome home . I look at him I've found my voice. I've been home for a week .. I say. He says I know . Oh u knew .and waited a week ..im thinking .. I walk past him to the frig and grab a Frappuccino bottle.. and open it. He opens his cig box and takes one out . He holds the box open to me and I take one .. he lights it . I stand with my back to the counter and he's holding the other counter opposite me up . He says u look great . I say thanks ..u too. .at this moment it hit me like a brick to the face. .. he's huge ! Like three times the size he was 8 weeks ago .. his face is so full and he's been working out .. but he looks thick .. wow. I smile and he says what ? I shake my head nothing .. he says u really do look good. Thank u I say. .i wanna squeeze his cheeks .. I burst out laughing !!! He says what ? I say oh nothing . U know me I have random thoughts I say. .. he says share them .. no! I'm good. I say .. he says we can be friends Melanie. .. he's looking in my eyes again. And his cheeks are so puffy so dam cute . He's still gorgeous or even more gorgeous now. Like wow I didn't think u could improve on the perfect that Jay was .. but hell I was so wrong !!! He's so smoking hot. But those cheeks I can't get over them .. so puffy .so dam cute .. I'm so into him. Omg. I wanna eat him up !! Can we Jay ? I ask . He says I hope so . OK then I say .. he says I didn't say this would be easy . Nope I say . Jay it's prolly gonna be too hard don't u think ? I ask . He shrugs and says I don't know we are doing it now ... are we doing this well? I ask . Jay says we don't have to do it well. We just have to make it work. It's all we have . Yeah u guessed it. I have to cry like flood gates . I say great! And walk to the bathroom.
