The morning we are packing to leave .. Jay is all smiles. Hes happy. He says dad is gonna pack the van .. we have to go somewhere .. I say OK .. we get in the car and drive .. we pull into the cemetery. . Jay says come on .. we walk up to the stone and Jay says hey grandma .. I smile . Jay says it a girl momma .. he tears up . And I have tears pouring . He's just standing there crying . I feel so sad for him. I know he would love to see his momma . And with his daughter . He says I know your gonna watch over her momma . I can't wait to see her face. We sit . I say Jay imma give you a min .. he says OK . As he's wiping his face .. seeing Jay cry kills me .. I can't .. when he gets to the car .. he hugs me tight. And rubs my belly for a few minutes. . He says I love yall. I say we love you too .. daddy . He smiles .. we get in the van Jay has my seat all packed with covers and pillows . He's got a 24 pack of water , and snacks. I look at him. I love you Jay , I say he say I know and winks at me , I love you too baby . He says Jay has ask 1000 times are u OK ? Do we need to stop. You want anything. Jay seems nervous, he was worried about his daughter and I traveling .. I keep telling him that we are doing just fine. He is sitting on the floor of the van in front of me lightly rubbing my belly. And my hip. I can feel her moving in my belly. Jay says she's moving maybe you need to stand for a few minutes. It's been a few hours. Rick says I'm pulling off here in one minute. . Jay says OK to his dad... Jay says she moving a lot .. and smiles at me .. I say she can feel u rubbing her .. Jay says she's my baby girl , I love her already. I say. I know u do , I do too. Jay says I can't wait to hold her , it's not fair that u get to hold her first . I laugh. It's not fair u don't get morning sickness and fat ankles! Jay laughs he says your ankles are not fat. I say oh just wait for it . Jay smiles he says ur gonna be beautiful the whole time. No worries .. we get out the van and Jay is watching me step out the van like waiting to catch me. I'm seriously not even big yet .. what is he gonna do when I can't even see my feet ? Oh wow this boy .. I know it's all from his heart .. but the blow is gonna come from my fist !!! He has to give me some space .. I'm serious!! We walk into this restaurant it's all southern home cooked foods ,mash taters ,ham, casseroles, pies , sweet tea... the works. Yummm. I can feel my baby moving again. She ready to eat . I rub her and tell her we are about to seriously put away some food. Jay smiles . He says are u hungry baby .. I say yessss!!!!! He says come on its a buffet style place. It's awesome .. we get our food and sit down. I'm eating the best home cooked food ever. . So good . Jay says when we get there u will not lift a finger . Maria will take care of us. He gives me the look . Like don't play. I want u to relax please ? Jay says .. I shake my head yes .. but I know I will get him to go skate or something. And I'll be able to cook or clean .. lol. It's sad I have to send him off so we don't fight about all this .. I just don't wanna fight him. It will be late when we arrive , and i already can't wait to crawl in that bed. It feels like a cloud ! I'm getting super stuffed .. and I still want pie .. Jay says what do u want baby , I want the strawberry pie , I say. Jay says OK. He stands up and walks to the buffet , I see him talking to some girl. He has hugged her like he hasn't seen her in a while and is smiling pretty hard. He walks off ,and grabs my pie .. he's back putting my pie down .. he looks at me ..I raise my eye brow , he says oh that my teachers daughter. Lannie. we went to school together ..I haven't Seen her in and while .. I smile. Jay says nope I never dated her. .or nothing else . My mom looks up at Jay and says wow that's a first . I laugh .. she says I didn't think there was a female on earth u hadden.... Jay says not many . We all laugh. But I hit Jay . He says no ,no violence around my baby .. he's laughing ..
