I hear him saying baby baby ..hey I'm home . I roll over slightly. .he whispers hey my love .. I roll over and put my face to his chest. ..I can feel him smiling he kisses my forehead. He says I missed you so much tonight. I shake my head yes . He laughs a Lil . He says I'm gonna eat and then shower ..I'll be back soon. I say I love you baby. .. he kisses me and says I love you too . I fall back a sleep .. I hear McKenna fussing I open my eyes to see Jay lifting our daughter. She's mad he says looking over at me. .. I say why ? He says I'm not sure yet as McKenna has her head on daddy's chest now. ..she seems to feel better right there .. me too baby girl. Can we share .. I stand up and turn the light on .. I look in her bed and find her binky I go wash it .I put it back in her mouth when I noticed Jay is in a towel.. I take McKenna and go to her room. I change her diaper and put her in bed clothes .. when I walk in the living room Jay walks out the kitchen toward me with a bottle for Kenna .. but it's hard to notice that bottle.. I see Jay is wearing his deep gray sweat pants! ! Yum !! He says I'll Rock her if u need to lay back down .. I say I need to pee! He takes our daughter and sits in my chair. .. Kenna's favorite and most Comfortable place. When I come back Jay has McKenna wrapped in her favorite blanket the one she can not be with out. . The one Jay bought her at the flea market before she was born .. she takes it every where .. Jay says we have to wash it soon ...I laugh 20 mins later Jay stands with McKenna and says come on baby to me .. we walk to our room Jay put McKenna in her bed . And I lay down Jay spoons in behind me and whispers how was ur day beautiful. I say good . But my guilt chose now to come back... Jay whispers I need you baby ..I'm thinking yes ! But then I know I'll be thinking some stupid shit. I whisper back OK .. he stops rubbing my ass immediately. . What's wrong baby. .. he ask I say nothing baby. In my sweet voice hoping he don't ask again. He whispers it's OK if ur too tired and he lays down and holds me .. I turn over to face him .. I'm OK. Baby we can .. he says are u sure .. yes Jay I'm sure. .. he kisses me and immediately goes down town .. I lay there rather calm .. he's back at my face real soon. He says what's wrong baby seriously? Why didn't u just tell me ur not in the mood ... I am Jay I promise. ..I whisper .. he's says no ur not I can tell baby . And it's OK. We can just go to sleep .. I beg Jay for another 10 mins please make love to me .. please baby. I'm sry. I'm just fuzzy cuzz I was a sleep... he begins rubbing me and says if ur not there when I get there I'm gonna be mad that ur lying to me .. I kiss him a few times trying desperately to find away to get there .. I'm just not able to stop feeling guilty! He's getting closer to it .. and I'm scared .. he whispers I love you baby. I mean it. I love you so much. ...yep that does it ..he pushes two fingers in and I am there ..so there .. he whispers u want me ? Yep so there .. I shake my head yes .. he says come with me .. he moves his hand and we get off the bed .. he walks us to the guest bedroom and we get it in the bed .. he says I'm gonna love you so hard .. I didn't want to wake our daughter .. I smile. . He pushes inside me again and this time with serious in tensions .... he wants me to convulse. He's giving the area some serious attention and my neck some serious suction! ! He's all about this moment. Giving me all I can handle .. finally I convulse. Hard like almost black out hard .. he's on his knees my feet on his chest and he's in hard .. slams in to me and I groan hard.. he says u ok? I say yes ! . He does this same slam motion for about 4 mins.. and he falls over on me.. I hold him and kiss his face .. he says ur gonna kill me woman .. I say me ? He says yes you . I did nothing ! U fucked me !! He grabs my face and kisses me and says I'm gonna do it again real soon too. .. he laughs .. I say good to know. . He says u know . We get up and go back to our room. Laying there in bed Jays spoons up behind me and puts his face to my neck ..normal sleep position for us..for yrs.
