Laying on Matt's chest after we made love for hours he says melanie.... I mumble huh.. he says I meant what I said. I look in his eyes.. I say we will work all this out soon. He says not soon enough. He lays back ... we went to sleep. The next morning we eat breakfast and head back to the room. I have to change in to my comfortable drive clothes ... 4 hours and I'll be home with my babies!!! I can't wait. I've missed them so much. Matt looks sad. I feel the sadness. But we knew this would happen. Matt packs my suv. And we stand there in the car door ... we kiss and hug and kiss and hug. When I pull off I have tears rolling down my face. I stop at sb. And ask for plenty of napkins with my tall caramel mocha... while waiting I turn on my phone. I see 100 text from Jay... I look at a few just make sure every thing is ok. .. I call Jay.. Hey. Hey. How is everything I ask. He says all is good. Just waiting on u. .. I'm on the way home now. Be about 4 hours. He says ok. OK bye ....
Pulling in my drive way I look at the dash clock.. it's 4 pm. I leap out and see my girls running toward me. I love this so much !!! I love my girls. Two hours later still hold my daughters in my lap Jay says imma go get us some dinner he pulls his keys out.. I smile at him. He half smiled at me ..
As we are eating Chinese food for dinner I ask Kenna. How was the weekend with daddy? She says we went to the park ,and we met a friend of daddy's. ... daddy what's her name ? Jay looks at Kenna. He says ummm. Saskatchewan Kenna lol. . I look at Jay. I say well that's good that's great. I say well we need to get a shower ladies. After we are all clean and in our jammies.. I rock all three of my babies to sleep in my chair .. I ask Jay can u put Kenna to bed .. he lifts Kenna and walks to her room. I walk to the twins room and lay them in the bed together. When I walk out there room I hear the shower going. Jay is in the shower ... I go clean up dinner .. I need to unpack . I have to work tomorrow for 4 hours. Then I'm gonna spend the rest of the day with my girls. I'm putting my clothes in the washer when Jay walks in. He's clean and smells so good. He looks good too. But Jay has and always will look gorgeous.. he's got on some sweet pant type shorts no shirt and bulging in all the right places .. he says did u have a good weekend. I couldn't stop the smile that spread across my face. He says that good huh.. I shake my head yes. Tell me about it ..he says . I say it was relaxing I got a massage..and I went swimming. Ate some delicious meals.. laid in the hot tub .. read .. u know just took time out for me. He says sounds good. I say who was she Jay.. he looks away and walk out .. if he says Shana I will stab him .. no lie. And I'm a chef I have excellent knife collection ... I walk to the living room and stand in front of him. Did u take the girls to meet that whore... he says no. I was there and she showed up. I didn't know she was gonna. I swear for 30 secs I contemplated going to the kitchen to get a knife. I kick him hard. I say u motherfucker!!! He says where we're u melanie. .. I look at him. What ? I ask. He says u were not at the lodge u said u were gonna be at ... nope! I say. Because I knew ud try to find me .. I say. ... Jay says who were u with .. ? I laugh... myself . Jay says I want a divorce.. in his calm dead pan ish voice .. I say granted ! I walk to the bedroom grab my purse and tell Jay stay with the girls I'll be back later ... I have on a huge t shirt and sweat pants flip flops. Perfect Walmart attire ... I walk out the door and Jay walks to me. He says. Where are u going now? I open the door to my suv. And try to step in... he grabs my arm. I yank away quickly.. he grabs me again .. I look up in his face .. he says if I find out that u were with Matt. I'm gonna hurt u and him . His voice was serious. I say. Jay. He looks in my face .. you took the girls to meet ur girl friend. Remember that as I jump in my suv ... he says no I did not. I wouldn't do that to them. I went off on her for even showing up there ... OK great. Get out the way now. I yell at him ... he says no. He's very close to me .. I don't want u to leave. We need to talk. U always run. He said ... I say yep !
As I'm walking threw Walmart picking up all the things we need around the house. I call matt. .. Hey. He says hey baby. Matt says everything OK? Yes I'm at Walmart I had to get away from the millions of questions he keeps asking. Me. But he did say he wants a divorce ... Matt ask. Does he know we .. no ! I say a Lil too loud. Are u sure he ask ? Yes I'm sure. Do you want to divorce him ... he ask. Yes. I say. Wow. Matt says. Are u home yet I ask. He says no. I'm still driving. I wasn't in hurry u know .. yeah. It's great because of the girls . But horrible too. Matt says I love you. I say I love you too. I gotta go check out. I say. He says. Text me if u want .. OK. Bye
Two hours later the food is put away and the house is. Clean. I sit down in my chair .. I'm tired but I have all these dam emotions ... he wants a divorce. Wow. I walk to my room where I see Jay laid out on the bed .. looking like a buffet ... don't even ask why. But I crawled on top of him and laid my head on his chest ... he wraps his arms around me .. I'm crying .. he rolls over on top of me and starts whispering. I love you. I love you. While he's kissing my face .. I love you. He takes my clothes off and kisses me all over. While still saying I love you. He whispers please stop crying baby. Ur eyes will swell shut. I cry harder. He's got his hand between my legs and I am lost .. I'll never understand why this feels sooooooooooooo good. Omg !! He knows it too. He's sucking on my neck ... but I feel the tears rolling down my neck. He's crying too. Why? He whispers I love you and I say I love you too. But some how I'm not sure. Not sure if this is still love or just a love of this feeling. Because I'm dam certain if nothing else Jay is a master in bed. Perfected !! Nothing ever feels this good. This is the highest level. Can not be topped!! By no one .
