We walk in the door and see my ex boss he's handing the door guy money .. he sees me and smiles so big. I hug him tight. .. he says get in here girl and walks me to the side if the stage. There are all new younger girls on the bar. And the place looks a Lil different. We walk around I show him a pic on my phone of Kenna. I say yeah I got married .. he's so happy for me. the girl who has been singing on the mic . Says we have a special guest in the house tonight. ..I look around and she points at me .. I say no .I'm a customer tonight. I say no no. But then find myself center stage . I know all the dances .. this is so much fun !!! I had forgotten the amount of fun I had in this place. .. I've been dancing for a few songs when I see Jay walk in ..he's standing at the stage .I left him at the he last club we were at. With out telling him I was leaving . He piss me off big time when he went off on some guy for touching my back. I know Jay has a horrible temper and I just don't wanna see a fight. .. thank god the guy walked away.. but so did I . I'm shaking my ass on this stage I bend down and run my hand under his chin he looks so mad . I smile . He don't . I stand up and continue my dance. Where three guys try to get my attention. . I just keep strutting on .. I feel so good up here . This is fun .. an hour later when I'm helped down off the stage by two very good looking guys .. I don't see Jay. Tammie says he's outside .. I walk outside , Jay is standing off to the side. .. I walk up and say your mad I get it but can we not fight please . Tammie and I just wanted to have some fun.. he looks at me and smiles. I'm not mad baby. He says . Wait what ? I'm thinking. I say ur mad . He says no I'm not . I just wanted to smoke ..come here ..u look so good up there and I haven't seen that smile on ur face in a very long time .. I'm glad we did this tonight . I say me to. . He says it's 3 am tho are u ready to get home .. I say if ur ready yeah .. he pulls me to him. He says I'm very much ready to get you home .. he whispers in my ear , I wanna play . I smile. We tell everyone bye .. when we arrive home Jay knows me very well. .. he says come on . He turns the shower on . yes I really need a shower we have sweat and smoke and just being around people we don't know . Uhhhh. We wash from head to toe .. and I feel human again .. Jay says you feel better baby ? U say yes.. he pulls me in the water and kisses me . He says you look so sleepy. He's being so sweet .. loving . I whisper u wanted to play . He says not tonight baby. Come on I'm ready to hold you in our bed .. WAIT WHAT ? I'm screaming in my head .. I pull back and look at him . He looks mad .. we step out the show and Jay wraps a towel around me. I grab my robe I'm freezing .. he wraps a towel around his waist and we are standing in the bed room. I say Jay talk to me . He looks at me hard. Like so mad .. he says about what baby. Why but mad at me I say . He says I'm not mad at ..you. I say why are u mad then .. he looks at me but looks at the floor .. he says I wanted to play for all the wrong reasons.. and it makes me mad at myself .. I'm confused when I look at him. He says it's nothing baby .. he walks to the closet and is picking out clothes when I walk in .. I say Jay please explain.. he gives me his side way glance the evil one .. it says don't . I always have to push .. please Jay . I whisper. . He says I wanted to play because I was mad .. and I'm able to take that out on you .. I look scared ! I know I look scared. Well. Cuz I'm SCARED . You want to hurt me because ur mad? I ask . He shakes his head yes .. I walk away with my clothes I've picked out during this conversation. I stand in our bedroom and dress when I'm in my bed clothes .. I walk to the kitchen and grab two bottles of water . I sit in my chair . Drinking water ..thinking he just said he wanted to hurt me .. sexually .. WTF?
